07-08-2015, 12:01 AM
coming right back to decisions...
I'm not talking just weighty or lofty choices. I am especially talking of those somewhere inbetween and of daily opportunity. This is where my growth occurs most.
Lots of value here...
1) I can practice having crisp clarity that I am making a decision, and surround my decision with crisp clarity itself. Okay?? SEE where paying attention here creates space and is a form of detachment?
2) Focus on decisions highlights that they have import/consequences. I want reason (unemotional calculation) to be part of my choices. Again, SEE where this attention too has created space from a personal billy?
3) The good part.... I don't always know my fate (results), and IT IS A MAJOR POINT here to make the conscious effort to divorce from concern with results!!!!!!!! !! The next choice appears in fluid state. It is all about the choices, because I decide to make it so.
4) Decide, decide, decide, decide (myth of sysyphus overtone) will make personal billy want to resort to self-pity. In a battle of two billys, I choose to remember that a 'personal' billy is a slave. NO NO NO NO > I want my freedom, and I choose to reinforce this in every choice.
{THIS is all I have until my authenticity predominantly rises (as it does now)}
5) All this becomes the crucial preparation for 'deathground.' One day comes and whatever it is, the prospect of fate and your next choice in the given conditions will be immensely overwhelming. You will stalk yourself for a clear answer where none is possible, excepting this one. And having stalked yourself, your CHOICE is immediately, dynamically, manifest in the void of unlimited fate and potential. This is the RIGHT answer. This is a moment of sacred self-affimation. Welling up from previously unknown depth within comes profound reinforcement that says "YES I AM!" You know you can walk through fire, and pain is not a burden. You will draw from this empowering experience forevermore.
I'm not talking just weighty or lofty choices. I am especially talking of those somewhere inbetween and of daily opportunity. This is where my growth occurs most.
Lots of value here...
1) I can practice having crisp clarity that I am making a decision, and surround my decision with crisp clarity itself. Okay?? SEE where paying attention here creates space and is a form of detachment?
2) Focus on decisions highlights that they have import/consequences. I want reason (unemotional calculation) to be part of my choices. Again, SEE where this attention too has created space from a personal billy?
3) The good part.... I don't always know my fate (results), and IT IS A MAJOR POINT here to make the conscious effort to divorce from concern with results!!!!!!!! !! The next choice appears in fluid state. It is all about the choices, because I decide to make it so.
4) Decide, decide, decide, decide (myth of sysyphus overtone) will make personal billy want to resort to self-pity. In a battle of two billys, I choose to remember that a 'personal' billy is a slave. NO NO NO NO > I want my freedom, and I choose to reinforce this in every choice.
{THIS is all I have until my authenticity predominantly rises (as it does now)}
5) All this becomes the crucial preparation for 'deathground.' One day comes and whatever it is, the prospect of fate and your next choice in the given conditions will be immensely overwhelming. You will stalk yourself for a clear answer where none is possible, excepting this one. And having stalked yourself, your CHOICE is immediately, dynamically, manifest in the void of unlimited fate and potential. This is the RIGHT answer. This is a moment of sacred self-affimation. Welling up from previously unknown depth within comes profound reinforcement that says "YES I AM!" You know you can walk through fire, and pain is not a burden. You will draw from this empowering experience forevermore.