billy's basic detachment practice

[Billy]

Note*  I am reaching.. extending in an insecure, ornery manner.  LAUGH......   still true.  I mentioned earlier, I write ostentateously when conditions are less easy.  There is some negative tightening, and yet this position allows me to stalk myself.  I enjoy the 'unenviable' by a hearty, sensual retreat to the bottom of it all.

Oh my fucking god, I really am substantially doing this **** I speak of..  SMILE.

There are highs in my lows. There are lows in my lows.  There are highs in my highs, and I make sure to SEE the lows in the highs.    I'm a rat in the sewer, and an angel in heaven.

What I really am is a pig at the trough.......   ....