08-31-2015, 12:02 AM
Continued from book:
Shame is a most powerful emotion, suited for sex and masturbation. Leaving aside
the poignant ontological connections (which in itself is hugely significant to sex when
understood), I will look at the human experience as a combo of WORLD/FEELING/BODY.
WORLD: Shame at a deep level is a relation with the 'WORLD as a whole' that is not
reduced to partial relationships like other emotions (If jealous, jealous of an entity; if
embarrassed, embarrassed from an entity; if angry, angry at an entity; if guilty, guilty
involving an entity). Shame at the base, has relationship in isolation from the WORLD'S
EVERYTHING. That is a big distinction; think of power limited versus power en masse.
Get it?
FEELING: The main bio-ontological abstraction of the FEELING shame IS power and
sex. And, shame is the most predominant medium of power and sex in the universe.
(Think about that rationally based on evolution.) AND, the polar of inadequacy to
abundance is a trick your mind allows (You have to believe, as it is true, powerful pain
and denial can become powerful pleasure.) There is nothing more inadequate than
emptiness, and only shame can steal your soul and make you that empty.
Emptiness not only allows a free flow of energy and FEELING which is conducted through
your body, THAT EMPTINESS IS ENERGY.
BODY: Given the preceding, OMG if you can get to that shameful state that makes
you feel truly worthless. This allows you to give into the power of your shame, and I
promise you will have an adrenal rush that unites WORLD/MIND/BODY. This
masturbation is different than anything you have ever experienced.
For one thing, other emotions are difficult to objectify and maintain at the same time.
When you are angry and objectify, you are no longer angry. In shame you have your cake,
and eat it too; it has conscious STAYING power unlike any emotion.
In shame, you bathe in shame, and your body becomes flush, and THEN you become
even more ashamed, and more consciously objective at the same time. You will enter a
vortex that won't let you out, and one you certainly won't want to leave. All the adrenalin,
endorphins, serotonins, neurotransmitters, and whatever chemicals UNCONTROLLABLY
FLOOD your body, because shame is suddenly getting what it is not supposed to have in
primal bio-socio manifestation of sex and power. You know your own taboo, but now
shamelessly steal from its limitless power, and this makes you EVEN MORE profoundly
ashamed. {This is so overwhelming that you coalesce around pure joy.}
ALL THE WHILE, YOUR sexual stimulation is ever increasingly heightened and super crazy.
Your lost worthless self concedes to shame's magnificent power. You are sucked into
emptiness, wherefore comes indescribably passionate orgasm as infinite shivers. The
pleasure is so intensely great that your joy has the sensation of hurting.
Immediately after, if you are Christian, you will say "JESUS ***!" and try to amend.
You will say, "GOD!" and forgetting yourself, say "***!"
In alternate succession, not even knowing, you will say '*** GOD' repeatedly.
When finally gathered, you say, "OMG, THAT was insane. Thank you dear Jesus."
Question) What are you afraid of? Answer) You are afraid to be yourself! {That's all
it is, honest to GOD.}
THIS ALSO is the answer as to why you cling. You identify with the inadequacy of of shame
and are simply afraid to be who you are.
If unfounded guilt and God (which are pretty much the same) are part of having the
experience, you will be drained afterwards. I would give this shame stuff up. You
won't, but I advise you to.
If you know enough to take guilt out of the equation {Let it be ENERGY}, it can be a
seriously fun, super-intense turn-on. It can be so fucking joyous. You will not only NOT
be drained, you will feel rejuvenated. As long as you have this abundant energy, you
can keep playing around with shame masturbation in unimaginable ways. Something
makes you free. THAT is good.
After such an experience, you now will believe yourself to extend detachment to
other sensibilities, and to start practicing detachment more as a way of being, until it IS
a way of being. The reward is your freedom.
One of the amazing things about being free, is that when you interact with others, you
pretty much know what the score is; where they are coming from, what they are saying,
and what they really want.
There is pretense in controlled folly, then there is pretense.
As I mentioned earlier, wholeness/freedom brings more energy and knocks down
barriers because you honestly do not fake any aspect of reality. And there is irony--to
be forthrightly SELF, involves understanding world as a projection of senses as if in
PLAY. In other words, outside of the essential BEING, you watch impersonal
phenomena that has no weight, no authenticity. It is not you.
{It is Energy in your enlightened state. (This sense of PLAY manifests very gradually, but there is no
disappointment of going backwards--it is of the permanent Peace I spoke of earlier).}
{When you have clearer empirical understanding of this, OMG you will PLAY, and life
can be so much fun.
Shame is a most powerful emotion, suited for sex and masturbation. Leaving aside
the poignant ontological connections (which in itself is hugely significant to sex when
understood), I will look at the human experience as a combo of WORLD/FEELING/BODY.
WORLD: Shame at a deep level is a relation with the 'WORLD as a whole' that is not
reduced to partial relationships like other emotions (If jealous, jealous of an entity; if
embarrassed, embarrassed from an entity; if angry, angry at an entity; if guilty, guilty
involving an entity). Shame at the base, has relationship in isolation from the WORLD'S
EVERYTHING. That is a big distinction; think of power limited versus power en masse.
Get it?
FEELING: The main bio-ontological abstraction of the FEELING shame IS power and
sex. And, shame is the most predominant medium of power and sex in the universe.
(Think about that rationally based on evolution.) AND, the polar of inadequacy to
abundance is a trick your mind allows (You have to believe, as it is true, powerful pain
and denial can become powerful pleasure.) There is nothing more inadequate than
emptiness, and only shame can steal your soul and make you that empty.
Emptiness not only allows a free flow of energy and FEELING which is conducted through
your body, THAT EMPTINESS IS ENERGY.
BODY: Given the preceding, OMG if you can get to that shameful state that makes
you feel truly worthless. This allows you to give into the power of your shame, and I
promise you will have an adrenal rush that unites WORLD/MIND/BODY. This
masturbation is different than anything you have ever experienced.
For one thing, other emotions are difficult to objectify and maintain at the same time.
When you are angry and objectify, you are no longer angry. In shame you have your cake,
and eat it too; it has conscious STAYING power unlike any emotion.
In shame, you bathe in shame, and your body becomes flush, and THEN you become
even more ashamed, and more consciously objective at the same time. You will enter a
vortex that won't let you out, and one you certainly won't want to leave. All the adrenalin,
endorphins, serotonins, neurotransmitters, and whatever chemicals UNCONTROLLABLY
FLOOD your body, because shame is suddenly getting what it is not supposed to have in
primal bio-socio manifestation of sex and power. You know your own taboo, but now
shamelessly steal from its limitless power, and this makes you EVEN MORE profoundly
ashamed. {This is so overwhelming that you coalesce around pure joy.}
ALL THE WHILE, YOUR sexual stimulation is ever increasingly heightened and super crazy.
Your lost worthless self concedes to shame's magnificent power. You are sucked into
emptiness, wherefore comes indescribably passionate orgasm as infinite shivers. The
pleasure is so intensely great that your joy has the sensation of hurting.
Immediately after, if you are Christian, you will say "JESUS ***!" and try to amend.
You will say, "GOD!" and forgetting yourself, say "***!"
In alternate succession, not even knowing, you will say '*** GOD' repeatedly.
When finally gathered, you say, "OMG, THAT was insane. Thank you dear Jesus."
Question) What are you afraid of? Answer) You are afraid to be yourself! {That's all
it is, honest to GOD.}
THIS ALSO is the answer as to why you cling. You identify with the inadequacy of of shame
and are simply afraid to be who you are.
If unfounded guilt and God (which are pretty much the same) are part of having the
experience, you will be drained afterwards. I would give this shame stuff up. You
won't, but I advise you to.
If you know enough to take guilt out of the equation {Let it be ENERGY}, it can be a
seriously fun, super-intense turn-on. It can be so fucking joyous. You will not only NOT
be drained, you will feel rejuvenated. As long as you have this abundant energy, you
can keep playing around with shame masturbation in unimaginable ways. Something
makes you free. THAT is good.
After such an experience, you now will believe yourself to extend detachment to
other sensibilities, and to start practicing detachment more as a way of being, until it IS
a way of being. The reward is your freedom.
One of the amazing things about being free, is that when you interact with others, you
pretty much know what the score is; where they are coming from, what they are saying,
and what they really want.
There is pretense in controlled folly, then there is pretense.
As I mentioned earlier, wholeness/freedom brings more energy and knocks down
barriers because you honestly do not fake any aspect of reality. And there is irony--to
be forthrightly SELF, involves understanding world as a projection of senses as if in
PLAY. In other words, outside of the essential BEING, you watch impersonal
phenomena that has no weight, no authenticity. It is not you.
{It is Energy in your enlightened state. (This sense of PLAY manifests very gradually, but there is no
disappointment of going backwards--it is of the permanent Peace I spoke of earlier).}
{When you have clearer empirical understanding of this, OMG you will PLAY, and life
can be so much fun.