billy's basic detachment practice

[Billy]

Notice this is written years ago and the growth continues.  There is definitely an addiction (a temporary phase) to shame after it turns you on, and I have warned somewhere to keep the practice a private matter until there is some maturity (the flow of energy is overwhelming, and there is the temptation to become accessible and manifest.  I learned that the accessibility I obtained to the source of emptiness is ALL that matters.  I learned from trial and error that wisdom when to be accessible and inaccessible otherwise is to be guided by the inward motion to this source.  (I feel it as a deep pause, a satisfying sensation of sinking through my heart until the image 'i' disappears)

ADD:  The sensation of withdrawal into shame and the deep pause to obtain to emptiness are exactly the same.