09-08-2015, 12:02 AM
As I say I am becoming powerful, I add the adjunct that this is relative to previous experience. I mean, there was a time when I was the worst; I just had no wherewithal, no awareness and cognizance.
I am dishing out from/for my own interest, as the novelty of this stage wants personal expression of itself. I am truly flying above older ways of being; I am graced in and of myself as cultivated through humbling machinations of shame. {I recapped, recreated or/and IMAGININED 'negative appraisals,' and literally put my 'self' in a base position until I kept myself there permanently}
Maintaining this sense of bottom (now objectified) is my sole posture, and as such it is the energetic basis for my breathing. Out of the 'disgusting' bottom (lol), is limitless possibility. There, one knows that all perceptions are forms of self-pity indulged. I indulge them to be sure, only they arise immediately objectified and evolved from this permanent presence at the bottom.
As I said, "my shame is a misnomer," as it is truly a simple inflection of indifference or "eternal energy in the void." It follows, my humble posture is not really one of humility the way one would commonly understand it; to be certain, my manifestations have no boundaries that way. I stalk ruthlessly........ ....
A disposition that admits limitation is no longer part of me. I do not choose that, nor do I choose death unless and until I decide THAT.
(NOTE* -- image self is under the domain of MY IMMORTAL SELF, and the only thing fucking lower than my image self is MY IMMORTAL SELF > I spiral downward even lower from the reach of habitual reality until I alone am the creator)
I am dishing out from/for my own interest, as the novelty of this stage wants personal expression of itself. I am truly flying above older ways of being; I am graced in and of myself as cultivated through humbling machinations of shame. {I recapped, recreated or/and IMAGININED 'negative appraisals,' and literally put my 'self' in a base position until I kept myself there permanently}
Maintaining this sense of bottom (now objectified) is my sole posture, and as such it is the energetic basis for my breathing. Out of the 'disgusting' bottom (lol), is limitless possibility. There, one knows that all perceptions are forms of self-pity indulged. I indulge them to be sure, only they arise immediately objectified and evolved from this permanent presence at the bottom.
As I said, "my shame is a misnomer," as it is truly a simple inflection of indifference or "eternal energy in the void." It follows, my humble posture is not really one of humility the way one would commonly understand it; to be certain, my manifestations have no boundaries that way. I stalk ruthlessly........ ....
A disposition that admits limitation is no longer part of me. I do not choose that, nor do I choose death unless and until I decide THAT.
(NOTE* -- image self is under the domain of MY IMMORTAL SELF, and the only thing fucking lower than my image self is MY IMMORTAL SELF > I spiral downward even lower from the reach of habitual reality until I alone am the creator)