09-21-2015, 12:03 AM
I'll tell a little story of this last insertion with its unintended milieu. I was seething with anger and displayed some of out of control temper at my wife for being a REAL **** the last few days. So I'm settling myself down, drawing on my own knowing. I come here to edit words in a previous post, "I LOVE IT"--(a combo that it was goofy, and now unfitting sentiment for my irate mood), then write the piece, "So I depersonalize..."
I have wherewithal to glance at my own last entries for sustenance, and one of the first sentences I read is, "The disconcerting aspects, events, and moments of life are the premium opportunities to sharpen SELF-control and maintain deportment worthy of the warrior's way." (timely, no?)
So I really DO depersonalize to meet the truth with the truth. My wife can rot in hell (anger), or she can rot in hell (simply so). {Malleable point of view} I chose my sentiment immediately from the detached view (simply so) and move on > NEXT > I write, "Screw self-pity......... .... (and really am obtained to detachment and reinventing reality) My wife comes STOMPING in like a terror, (I am a bit alarmed because she has previously screamed at me for screwing up her computer by changing internet providers. I think I have fixed this problem when she enters)
In the same hostile tone you would expect her to address me if there was a continued negative issue with the computer, she tells me, "Its working." Then she babbles derogatory words, I jump from my lazyboy chair and tail her, continuously poking my finger in her ass (unallowed). {SHE IS FURIOUS/I AM GETTING KICKS OUT OF THIS}
Undid Louis Armstrong (P.S. I diddled my wife with some intentional derision knowing I could at this exact point; mostly, the fix on the computer had defused my wife, my obscene riddling let her know it's all okay.')
I have wherewithal to glance at my own last entries for sustenance, and one of the first sentences I read is, "The disconcerting aspects, events, and moments of life are the premium opportunities to sharpen SELF-control and maintain deportment worthy of the warrior's way." (timely, no?)
So I really DO depersonalize to meet the truth with the truth. My wife can rot in hell (anger), or she can rot in hell (simply so). {Malleable point of view} I chose my sentiment immediately from the detached view (simply so) and move on > NEXT > I write, "Screw self-pity......... .... (and really am obtained to detachment and reinventing reality) My wife comes STOMPING in like a terror, (I am a bit alarmed because she has previously screamed at me for screwing up her computer by changing internet providers. I think I have fixed this problem when she enters)
In the same hostile tone you would expect her to address me if there was a continued negative issue with the computer, she tells me, "Its working." Then she babbles derogatory words, I jump from my lazyboy chair and tail her, continuously poking my finger in her ass (unallowed). {SHE IS FURIOUS/I AM GETTING KICKS OUT OF THIS}
Undid Louis Armstrong (P.S. I diddled my wife with some intentional derision knowing I could at this exact point; mostly, the fix on the computer had defused my wife, my obscene riddling let her know it's all okay.')