10-06-2015, 12:03 AM
When you have some momentus detachment success, you need to pay attention, to make note that this is where you will draw from other times.
This is why I liked a series of self-negation sessions, wherein, I moved through self-pity to an even greater sense of having no redemption-- so 'in fact' (by the attempt anyway) I was totally worthless and wanted my just desserts of suffering. The process of my own initiation here was powerful, because I knew I could then intend this lowly state by will (on command) in the future. The value of such practices is that the subconscious is aware that billy is 'playing games with his mind' {not really becoming worthless}.
Still, such is useful to move into when under circumstances of duress; here I avoid the pervasive negativity of the external stimuli by the internal journey to that place where I was (supposedly) worthless. This habitual diversion creates immediate space whereby I am detached without using energy. My prerogative to think, act, and be billy in a good way is unhindered.
This is why I liked a series of self-negation sessions, wherein, I moved through self-pity to an even greater sense of having no redemption-- so 'in fact' (by the attempt anyway) I was totally worthless and wanted my just desserts of suffering. The process of my own initiation here was powerful, because I knew I could then intend this lowly state by will (on command) in the future. The value of such practices is that the subconscious is aware that billy is 'playing games with his mind' {not really becoming worthless}.
Still, such is useful to move into when under circumstances of duress; here I avoid the pervasive negativity of the external stimuli by the internal journey to that place where I was (supposedly) worthless. This habitual diversion creates immediate space whereby I am detached without using energy. My prerogative to think, act, and be billy in a good way is unhindered.