billy's basic detachment practice

[Billy]

I'm going to say something that follows the above which I think is important.  My favorite book, Fountainhead, is much about pride as the ultimate virtue as is Objectivism. 

My trist with want of submissiveness to my wife has been brief.  The irony is, the relation is turned upside down-- I am now in command of the subtle and not so subtle movements of relations with my wife.

Her dominance persisted more or less for over thirty years.  I have changed that dynamics entirely.  (think about it..  this is not something that happens often)

I am bringing out contrasts of ideas and real manifestation to make a critical point.  The choice (INTENT) of awareness to be in detachment and to return to the source of my emptiness involves a paradox.  It separates me and connects me simultaneously from the world and reality.

   Instead of concern for form extended outward, all of my perception when I am at my best is the most basic EMBODIMENT > the simple aura of being > a sense of my space like an invisible cocoon wrapping around my body.

   If I think to create this space or embellish it, I can by a simple directive of perception inward, as if through my heart and in forfeiture of this perception, so as there is nothing else but humbling surrender.
I can feel peaceful equilibrium and contained energy ooze out of this position (indifference).  This contained energy no longer remains passive (or just a sensation); it is mine to create with as I INTEND.

   I am at the beginnings.  It is probable that some smile knowingly here because they have been where I am.