billy's basic detachment practice

[Billy]

serloco  ah but billy i must say.. people can not hold you- no, but you hold yourself at times. what i mean is you have intent and have made goals for you and your world, for your play. and so now they move billy and you as you say are the director with the cues. you have set many now billy, and so they are all moving to your intent and this holds you.. yes indeed it does but you can release yoursef and reassign roles and motion, you can let go of past intent too and reset your choices.

The fucking words seem superfluous because you already know everything I will say, but I'll say them anyway.  It was good form to send me away for a timeout with connectivity and purity as parting words.  You know goddamn well that I cannot choose to be hooked to you.  Whether I am/or I am not > makes no difference here.  I move forward thinking I execute stone-cold detachment, as I know that is your virtue.

You are well beyond me, but this will change as you would wish.  I'm nervy in the way I present myself, given I know full well of your immense abiltiies of sorcery.  I'm in no hurry; but, if I should be, tell me to giddy up and go.

   Sometimes, when I get it (power) in relating to you as my mirror, I do exhibit some fear.  I have discovered I have virtually no limitations in the realm of billy/derek; this tells me you have no limitations either. 
   Mostly though, I am experiencing my freedom.  Connectivity.  Yes I DO realize what it is I am connnecting to.  Purity is so beautiful, so very fucking beautiful.  You are beautiful.