billy's basic detachment practice

[Billy]

There is nothing contrdictory there.  I am speaking to the art of pulling back in as a way.  I appreciate the subtle primal awareness or/and feel of when I move inward even as I execute love's/life's machinations.  I mean literally the primal longing held in check so as to feel love's desire in consuming patience, existential pangs of want galore.  You TASTE this primal moving of awareness inward, identify with it, objectify it.  Very powerful control, as opposed to the quickness of normal interaction, which tends to have crude elements.

Do you ever wonder where I come up with this ****?  I am flowing out easily here.