11-24-2015, 12:07 AM
s. .. So, I get that you are more tractable now with the derek/billy communication.' I smile as I tell you I've needed you (smiles).
These hollows of transcending self-pity are interesting. Yet, there is no difficulty reconciling 'meaninglessness' with the knowledge I step between my family and danger if need be. I say interesting because, while reason is there, it moves aside for instincts and intuitiveness.
The nagual stuff (if that's what it is) is open-ended. The abyss allows no unsteady action. (by the way, Susan said to me today, You're always looking at "NAG- goo- ALL" on the computer. "Na- well," I said.
There is really no connection between us whatsoever. There, don't you feel better that it's been said? lol. derek/billy is the simplest mirror. I talk to you (though separate) as I would talk to myself. Either's disappearance is irrelevant. You already knew this. I knew it too.
Back to the hollowing out of life..
Oh man, it is so bizarre. Nothing will ever be the same.. LAUGHING > all the way to the OLD TOWN > in a one horse open sleigh.. jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way..
These hollows of transcending self-pity are interesting. Yet, there is no difficulty reconciling 'meaninglessness' with the knowledge I step between my family and danger if need be. I say interesting because, while reason is there, it moves aside for instincts and intuitiveness.
The nagual stuff (if that's what it is) is open-ended. The abyss allows no unsteady action. (by the way, Susan said to me today, You're always looking at "NAG- goo- ALL" on the computer. "Na- well," I said.
There is really no connection between us whatsoever. There, don't you feel better that it's been said? lol. derek/billy is the simplest mirror. I talk to you (though separate) as I would talk to myself. Either's disappearance is irrelevant. You already knew this. I knew it too.
Back to the hollowing out of life..
Oh man, it is so bizarre. Nothing will ever be the same.. LAUGHING > all the way to the OLD TOWN > in a one horse open sleigh.. jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way..

