11-25-2015, 12:07 AM
ADDITION: Alonzo used the analogy of a ratchet, and I could never quite grasp the concept as clearly as everything else he showed me. I guess, I mean the reasoning out of the path you take has to give way to fluidity and letting your intent take over. I was not good at this. I reflected and analyzed to extremes, and if it were not for serloco forcing my attention to move I'd be stuck where I was. What helps me the most now is that serloco granted me his knowledge of death defying, and so frankly my sense that I have eternity to do the things I do makes everything more naturally/fluidly evolve.
Recently, I am noticing that the working knowledge of my indifference is now continual and consistent, and the world moves with me. Where experience was more akin to certain amounts of awareness of interactivity in whatever environment or event, now it is akin to being directive causational awareness more often. Don't get me wrong, I am a mundane dolt with little going on most of the time; there is nothing special about me. What experiences of yore, are pretty much the same now, excepting now I often feel myself emanate bodily within my immediate space. Too, the same repetitive experiences arise having newness a lot most probably because I am not in the way.
Something remarkable happened the other day having sex with my wife. Our intercourse is ordinarily run of the mill stuff, though not always. This other day, nothing was that remarkable concerning passion, fetish, love, intensity, joy, etc. Only lately, I have had a keen sense of my detachment from everything; and so, as I orgasm I am experiencing this moreso as an effect on the spatial body than local to my groin.
The contractions are long and many, and the pleasure is acute. The pleasure is so acutely great that I can no longer stand it. I pull out in a manner as if to save my life before several remaining imminent contractions. I have never experienced pleasure so overwhelming and intense that it became too much pleasure to absorb. Understand however, there may be commensurate tribulations and challenges.
Recently, I am noticing that the working knowledge of my indifference is now continual and consistent, and the world moves with me. Where experience was more akin to certain amounts of awareness of interactivity in whatever environment or event, now it is akin to being directive causational awareness more often. Don't get me wrong, I am a mundane dolt with little going on most of the time; there is nothing special about me. What experiences of yore, are pretty much the same now, excepting now I often feel myself emanate bodily within my immediate space. Too, the same repetitive experiences arise having newness a lot most probably because I am not in the way.
Something remarkable happened the other day having sex with my wife. Our intercourse is ordinarily run of the mill stuff, though not always. This other day, nothing was that remarkable concerning passion, fetish, love, intensity, joy, etc. Only lately, I have had a keen sense of my detachment from everything; and so, as I orgasm I am experiencing this moreso as an effect on the spatial body than local to my groin.
The contractions are long and many, and the pleasure is acute. The pleasure is so acutely great that I can no longer stand it. I pull out in a manner as if to save my life before several remaining imminent contractions. I have never experienced pleasure so overwhelming and intense that it became too much pleasure to absorb. Understand however, there may be commensurate tribulations and challenges.