billy's basic detachment practice

[Billy]

The last post was general (not directed to you s.)

I am playing games which may or may not be relatable.  I have the influence of being given solid grounding help in the tonal.  That is being played against the deeply yearning aware billy (when so).

This deeply yearning aware billy draws from unimagineable (to you) understanding, that I am not a person philosophically connected to otherness on personal terms.  I want only the relation of subject/object or/and object/subject for existential sustenance.  This depersonalization ingrained in me is not of any effort of my own.  It is how I am. 

This is the billy that uses the exceptional communique with you s.  It is not born of need.  It is billy taking a look at billy > subject/subject and object/object.  Perhaps it is derek looking at derek this way too.

You are almost accessible.  I think there is a great deal of mutual crafting going on.