billy's basic detachment practice

[Billy]

I really think about abstaining from words here for months just to see what existential characteristics are going to be reflected in contrast to how it is now.  I have this nice, steady sensation of everything moving to my center.  I have always had this, but not as a an ever-present flow.  On a scale of one to ten, it is two or three relative to the stronger inward movements I have experienced before.  It is distinctive for consistency.  I temper every impingement of reactions, emotions, and looses thoughts rather easily.  One of the first things I noticed, was this ability to have balanced center without distinction to the types and intensities of influence and sentiment.  Little or no bias of judgement exists.  Stimuli are equal.  I know of course to pay attention that I have THIS flow.  I anticipate it will become stronger and that I can be stationed in indifference.

    I mention and am thankful to serloco often here for things he has done.  Moreover, the gratitude is for giving me keys to all the doors of the mansion. Though words like center, indifference, black canvas, healing can only be abstract descriptor, what is inside this figurative mansion are all empirically tangible once I see them.  I have no idea how many nooks and crannies, but I will likely find them and what is set there.  Shape shifting and other objects are in the next room or the next closet waiting for me.