04-22-2017, 12:00 AM
I am able to see the interplay of shadow intent. And social programming. I have detachment. But what now? Am I not supposed to be seeing great things witnessing great things. I have the vision but am unable to accomplish anything. I don't go to great places in my dreams. If anything they are regular. I'm not meeting allies. Although I have met them before. I need to visit somewhere in the dream world I can feel it. I need to be taught on the inside now. I have done all I can do here. I fear I am much like the sorcerers of old. I use intent to try and effect the world outside myself all the time. It's weird but I am not content and peaceful with being content and peaceful. I see it as useless to sit here in bliss. I need adventure. And I'm not finding it here. Everything is now equally unimportant. Now what.