08-21-2014, 12:00 AM
Oh yeah I have a lot of trippy stuff for sure. I also enjoy hearing other people's tales of power very much.
I have let go of my fears of dying and have self intended my death a few times. Once I was in a small town and had entered into a state of controlled folly. I could control every aspect of the people in my party house and was teaching them, as well as ring my control. I reached a point where I has found some astonishing secrets of reality, by simply intending body to flow, while letting go, and having the awareness flow into me. I saw and balanced all of life and death and reached a position of pointlessness. I lost all desire to live. I set my intent then to die and leave this world, knowing full well that i would. I set my attention ahead of me and decided to go to one of my favorite power places to do this, a small tourist town I adored and visited for camping in the wild every year or so. I felt so detached there and at total ease, while awaiting my death, which i did not plan the exact details for. It began raining as I was walking from my camp site into the town. I remembered that my allies
praised me greatly in the last town and stated that they were building me another statue in my honour in the next town. I did not yet know what the statue would be of. yet when I got there it was of a man stretching up into the sky, as if to fly, yet his legs were still on the ground. It depicted one of my feats where I can stretch into the sky, reaching over the tree tops, yet if I look down at the ground and see my feet are still there then they are, and I have not flown but merely stretched myself into the sly, expanding my legs. It';s pretty cool.
Anyways it was raining and a woman approached me, seeing me and knowing who I was, and offered to give me a roof over my head. I accepted her offer gladly and we began talking. She changed dramatically including her facial features and voice and began becomming different people I had known, different allies that i work with. She looked into me and repeated the words I had commanded about intending to die, and being here to die with a big smile on her face. "come with me she said" and so I did, seeing my death ahead of me. I won't go into all the details but she shifted m e out of the world and became a tenant or the tenant. She taught me the same shifts that were taught to Julian, becoming the form of a spider to engage in a strange sexual act that actually weaves new worlds from a unique female male relationship between us. She also taught me to become a female and she gave me many other positions of greatness. It was very alien a lot of the time, but very great and wonderful too. She hinted to me for conventional sex but I told her that she could transform her appearance again for me to become a young beautiful woman and she did. But not before she broke out in laughter and mocked me. To call her the tenant may be misleading because my ally can take any form throughout time including the essence of the tenant. I learned so many things with her that i can not tell them all without a lot of recollection. Perhaps one of the greatest things she gave me in that moment was the will to live and the vision to see purpose and wonder that is worth living for, and expands beyond our wildest dreams. Always getting better. She showed me that the position of don Juan's lineage to have no purpose for living and intending your own death was just a position of awareness in itself, and that i have intended that position onto myself and so entered into it exactly as they had. However she showed me how to find purpose, reason, desire and the will to live and so i did.
I have let go of my fears of dying and have self intended my death a few times. Once I was in a small town and had entered into a state of controlled folly. I could control every aspect of the people in my party house and was teaching them, as well as ring my control. I reached a point where I has found some astonishing secrets of reality, by simply intending body to flow, while letting go, and having the awareness flow into me. I saw and balanced all of life and death and reached a position of pointlessness. I lost all desire to live. I set my intent then to die and leave this world, knowing full well that i would. I set my attention ahead of me and decided to go to one of my favorite power places to do this, a small tourist town I adored and visited for camping in the wild every year or so. I felt so detached there and at total ease, while awaiting my death, which i did not plan the exact details for. It began raining as I was walking from my camp site into the town. I remembered that my allies
praised me greatly in the last town and stated that they were building me another statue in my honour in the next town. I did not yet know what the statue would be of. yet when I got there it was of a man stretching up into the sky, as if to fly, yet his legs were still on the ground. It depicted one of my feats where I can stretch into the sky, reaching over the tree tops, yet if I look down at the ground and see my feet are still there then they are, and I have not flown but merely stretched myself into the sly, expanding my legs. It';s pretty cool.
Anyways it was raining and a woman approached me, seeing me and knowing who I was, and offered to give me a roof over my head. I accepted her offer gladly and we began talking. She changed dramatically including her facial features and voice and began becomming different people I had known, different allies that i work with. She looked into me and repeated the words I had commanded about intending to die, and being here to die with a big smile on her face. "come with me she said" and so I did, seeing my death ahead of me. I won't go into all the details but she shifted m e out of the world and became a tenant or the tenant. She taught me the same shifts that were taught to Julian, becoming the form of a spider to engage in a strange sexual act that actually weaves new worlds from a unique female male relationship between us. She also taught me to become a female and she gave me many other positions of greatness. It was very alien a lot of the time, but very great and wonderful too. She hinted to me for conventional sex but I told her that she could transform her appearance again for me to become a young beautiful woman and she did. But not before she broke out in laughter and mocked me. To call her the tenant may be misleading because my ally can take any form throughout time including the essence of the tenant. I learned so many things with her that i can not tell them all without a lot of recollection. Perhaps one of the greatest things she gave me in that moment was the will to live and the vision to see purpose and wonder that is worth living for, and expands beyond our wildest dreams. Always getting better. She showed me that the position of don Juan's lineage to have no purpose for living and intending your own death was just a position of awareness in itself, and that i have intended that position onto myself and so entered into it exactly as they had. However she showed me how to find purpose, reason, desire and the will to live and so i did.