12-16-2015, 12:00 AM
Remember the Julio-facepalm exercise? So, when I talk about detachment and the catching of self clinging to thought etc., what is actually going on? 'Catching self' hmm > paying attention. Right?
I said make sure you indulge the success of this just a bit. Catch (pay attention to) this little indulgence too.
When I have initial existential anxiety I 'catch' (pay attention to) this emanation. Detachment intitally, is making space to enable paying attention with clarity............ ....
Now detachment is conversely PAYING ATTENTION to ATTENTION ITSELF as existential spatiality. This existential spatiality is manifested partly in bodily awareness. As objective reality is detached from wholesale further on, ATTENTION >AWARENESS is more or less habitually divested from the emanations. These emanations, instead of impingement followed by self-reflection, are plainly fuel > energy.
Further on {what I am just beginning to describe}, ATTENTION manifest in bodily sensations is unable alone to absorb so much energy. I bring it through my body to the point (billy) in vast, dark emptiness.
It is not possible for me to deflect this energy into worldly objects. (I don't know the working principle here); I only know, defacto, that want of attachments for any reason is not feasible for me.
I would say this is great (LAUGHING), except it brings some serious (though welcome) challenges. Truthfully though, I am just touching this for the first time.
So, now where I do engage objects (the world), I season them with my wisdom and consume the energy. I am not going to willfully allow energy to leave me anymore. This is my intent.
I said make sure you indulge the success of this just a bit. Catch (pay attention to) this little indulgence too.
When I have initial existential anxiety I 'catch' (pay attention to) this emanation. Detachment intitally, is making space to enable paying attention with clarity............ ....
Now detachment is conversely PAYING ATTENTION to ATTENTION ITSELF as existential spatiality. This existential spatiality is manifested partly in bodily awareness. As objective reality is detached from wholesale further on, ATTENTION >AWARENESS is more or less habitually divested from the emanations. These emanations, instead of impingement followed by self-reflection, are plainly fuel > energy.
Further on {what I am just beginning to describe}, ATTENTION manifest in bodily sensations is unable alone to absorb so much energy. I bring it through my body to the point (billy) in vast, dark emptiness.
It is not possible for me to deflect this energy into worldly objects. (I don't know the working principle here); I only know, defacto, that want of attachments for any reason is not feasible for me.
I would say this is great (LAUGHING), except it brings some serious (though welcome) challenges. Truthfully though, I am just touching this for the first time.
So, now where I do engage objects (the world), I season them with my wisdom and consume the energy. I am not going to willfully allow energy to leave me anymore. This is my intent.