12-19-2015, 12:00 AM
I tell a story in my book how the head wrestling coach was in the weight room lifting 250
pounds easily. He was only one weight class higher than me. I had just started assisting him
at the high school a few weeks prior.
I was grooming the kids to believe in me and my techniques. To this point, I had worked on
mechanics, and had not participated in full out 'round robins.'
I could barely lift half of what he could, and a couple boys rolled their eyes, and some
raised their eyebrows in doubt of my credibility.
Adding intrigue to this story, before I started substituting, Susan had allowed the head coach
to leave a Christmas faculty party with her the year prior. He couldn't get anywhere, not
even a date. He was aggravated to know she was going with me.
Returning to the wrestling room, the head coach was feeling himself puffed up. As if casually,
he asks, "Do you want to go a little?"
Immediately, all the boys clear off the mats. This is a happening to be watched.
I am nasty and mean-spirited. I beat the **** out of him mercilessly for ten minutes or
more. I inflict physical pain when I can. I nearly break his nose with my forearm; I try to
make it bloody. More than several times, I force him to groan in humiliation. I
dominate him 100%.
When it was over, he tried to self-deprecate out loud. Too late for that!
I was happy, because I knew the kids would be receptive to learn. A year later the
team won their conference division Championship. It would be the first time.
I hold many proud stories. I want to show here that there is no need for timidity, or want of
change to become humble. Still, there is a personal private necessity to SEE yourself candidly
to become free.
I can for sure stand atop when I choose, but I have foundation at the bottom.
ADD:
"there is a personal private necessity to SEE yourself candidly to become free... have foundation at the bottom.
'Warrior's Way Wannabe' (WWW) is in a typical social setting with Master Alpha drawing on primitive self-protective emotions. WWW is defending self-images that are in flux. This is not doable, so an array of self-identities disintegrate.. WWW shrinks before Master Alpha's eyes.
WWW is always going to be in failing survival mode with Master Alpha unless he/she understands the reality and value of self-isolation first.
Inadequacy and vulnerability are natural phenomena. Do not bury that; penetrate your weaknesses and compensate with total understanding.
{Master Alpha does not exist, the social situation does not exist the same way. You know the misguided objective of upholding images, and so consume the phantom energy of otherness.
OMG, I am so empirically remembering that the universe has virtually no power. It is weak, very very weak.
pounds easily. He was only one weight class higher than me. I had just started assisting him
at the high school a few weeks prior.
I was grooming the kids to believe in me and my techniques. To this point, I had worked on
mechanics, and had not participated in full out 'round robins.'
I could barely lift half of what he could, and a couple boys rolled their eyes, and some
raised their eyebrows in doubt of my credibility.
Adding intrigue to this story, before I started substituting, Susan had allowed the head coach
to leave a Christmas faculty party with her the year prior. He couldn't get anywhere, not
even a date. He was aggravated to know she was going with me.
Returning to the wrestling room, the head coach was feeling himself puffed up. As if casually,
he asks, "Do you want to go a little?"
Immediately, all the boys clear off the mats. This is a happening to be watched.
I am nasty and mean-spirited. I beat the **** out of him mercilessly for ten minutes or
more. I inflict physical pain when I can. I nearly break his nose with my forearm; I try to
make it bloody. More than several times, I force him to groan in humiliation. I
dominate him 100%.
When it was over, he tried to self-deprecate out loud. Too late for that!
I was happy, because I knew the kids would be receptive to learn. A year later the
team won their conference division Championship. It would be the first time.
I hold many proud stories. I want to show here that there is no need for timidity, or want of
change to become humble. Still, there is a personal private necessity to SEE yourself candidly
to become free.
I can for sure stand atop when I choose, but I have foundation at the bottom.
ADD:
"there is a personal private necessity to SEE yourself candidly to become free... have foundation at the bottom.
'Warrior's Way Wannabe' (WWW) is in a typical social setting with Master Alpha drawing on primitive self-protective emotions. WWW is defending self-images that are in flux. This is not doable, so an array of self-identities disintegrate.. WWW shrinks before Master Alpha's eyes.
WWW is always going to be in failing survival mode with Master Alpha unless he/she understands the reality and value of self-isolation first.
Inadequacy and vulnerability are natural phenomena. Do not bury that; penetrate your weaknesses and compensate with total understanding.
{Master Alpha does not exist, the social situation does not exist the same way. You know the misguided objective of upholding images, and so consume the phantom energy of otherness.
OMG, I am so empirically remembering that the universe has virtually no power. It is weak, very very weak.