01-03-2016, 12:00 AM
I hesitated about posting this morning, but thought about bringing truthful balance.
I woke up with the worst case of a painful dead zone; I mean, this was a leaden anchor of not wanting life to go on.. not feeling of blah or identifiable bleakness, but pure concentration of NO.
I had a knowing impulse to observe (observe what?) I told myself that everything (tonal) was fine, and got up to groom. I did that, but got back on the lazy-boy recliner I was sleeping on, and I pulled covers over my head to disappear from awareness. {I virtually never before went back to sleep as I did here}
I convey here that my range of experience is broad; that enlightenment has little to do with conditional change. This is about having rediscovered the focal bottom, the basis as an entity alive.
I woke up with the worst case of a painful dead zone; I mean, this was a leaden anchor of not wanting life to go on.. not feeling of blah or identifiable bleakness, but pure concentration of NO.
I had a knowing impulse to observe (observe what?) I told myself that everything (tonal) was fine, and got up to groom. I did that, but got back on the lazy-boy recliner I was sleeping on, and I pulled covers over my head to disappear from awareness. {I virtually never before went back to sleep as I did here}
I convey here that my range of experience is broad; that enlightenment has little to do with conditional change. This is about having rediscovered the focal bottom, the basis as an entity alive.