04-20-2016, 12:01 AM
To clarify about judgement arising from indifference: I don't need to be using the emptiness or indifference hardly ever. If I am in NY NY (emptiness/indifference) as the ultimate vacation destination, I don't have to keep drawing on the basic realization of that consciously. I trust myself once and for all that I am in NY NY (emptiness/indifference). I trust myself enough that I won't spend an entire week in Washington Square mesmerized by artists performing (unless aware to do that). When hungry, I won't stop and eat food for a week from the plethora of street venders (unless aware to do that). I mean, I have knowledge that there are amazing sights, spectacles, theatre, and eclectic eateries everywhere NY NY. So I am aware of being in NY NY (emptiness/indifference) without stalking myself.
I experience emotions, societal convention, occupation, wearing images with self-importance like anyone else. Only I am experiencing them with the transformative underlying awareness of being in emptiness/indifference. I AM IN emptiness/indifference as I AM IN NY NY, why would I keep telling myself that unless as you say, 'I am not there yet, not aware yet.'
Another thing about trust, is in the commitment of trusting. Four times in my life (not counting my wife, Susan), I have more or less unconditionally given my trust over to another human being. The last two being serloco and Kaomea. I AM LAUGHING HYSTERICALLY!!!!!!!
The trust is located NOT really in trusting THEM, but in trusting MYSELF to trust them. I soared forward 'spiritually' in all four cases.
There is huge risk/reward involved to be sure, in giving up your SELF to be fully absorbing the knowledge of another. I think you know this already: each time you can kind of die to yourself, you become more powerful SELF without losing anything that matters.
I am not promoting anything here. I KNEW to risk those trusts to others. It is the only sensible way to do that sort of thing. Something in you tells you when, and then you GO!
I experience emotions, societal convention, occupation, wearing images with self-importance like anyone else. Only I am experiencing them with the transformative underlying awareness of being in emptiness/indifference. I AM IN emptiness/indifference as I AM IN NY NY, why would I keep telling myself that unless as you say, 'I am not there yet, not aware yet.'
Another thing about trust, is in the commitment of trusting. Four times in my life (not counting my wife, Susan), I have more or less unconditionally given my trust over to another human being. The last two being serloco and Kaomea. I AM LAUGHING HYSTERICALLY!!!!!!!
The trust is located NOT really in trusting THEM, but in trusting MYSELF to trust them. I soared forward 'spiritually' in all four cases.
There is huge risk/reward involved to be sure, in giving up your SELF to be fully absorbing the knowledge of another. I think you know this already: each time you can kind of die to yourself, you become more powerful SELF without losing anything that matters.
I am not promoting anything here. I KNEW to risk those trusts to others. It is the only sensible way to do that sort of thing. Something in you tells you when, and then you GO!