12-11-2014, 12:00 AM
Its okay my friend. You see, to call you deranged is not an insult. When I got sick, and then healed, and then became someone else - that is deranged.
To be a seer is to be deranged - utterly! And to call you crazy (not insane but crazy) is not an insult either. Maybe you got mad at me, but in so doing you dropped your shields a bit and shared your story, at least a glimpse of it. If you are not gettin shaken up a bit or challenged from time to time you are stuck!
If I am reading this right, then you revealed how and why, through what kind of struggles, you had arrived on the warriors path. Your fight is no less valid than someone who struggles against reason, rigidity, and fear (like I do).
I can see you need the warrior's path at least as much as I do if not more, and that will always be the way it is, so you are on the warriors path, YOUR way which isn't always understood by 'reasonable' people like me.
So on death.
I once had a dream that I really did have intent at my command (it was a dream) and that I could get almost anything I wanted. I think a lot of people who lucid dream do that in their dream. In this dream, I would fight a demon, wish something, and then and answer from the dream would come back and say 'granted'. Until...
A dark figure oozed into the dream. So I tried to fight it as it approached me, and literally use my will in the dream to make it go away, every time I did that a voice would come from everywhere and say 'DENIED', and every time it would get closer. This black thing eventually got on top of me, and it had me pinned down with an iron grip that was impossible to break. SO I declared this almost verbatim, "I know that you are my death and you can take me any time, any where," and after I said that all these images flashed of where I might be when it happened, in front of my computer, while walking down the street, while driving, many images flashed by in an instant, and then I said "I know you will have me someday, but not today." Then the thing loosened. It backed off and faded away.
Was I about to die that night I don't know.
So to what you are saying about death...that a car was about to hit you and you talked to your death and said something like..."What if it just passed through me?" And then the car did. Well...yes that sounds hard to beleive but I do not disbelieve you either...If thats right then sorcery is also having a deal with death - a contract of sorts. If you interpret this with the Castaneda books, Don Juan teaches him that we open the gap (where death enters below the navel) when we move the assemblage point or use will. We go through a 'death' when that happens.
SOOO...you mean to say then, that when you are looking at death straight in the eyes, and at that moment you say something like 'well what if I flew instead of fell to my doom', or 'what if the car jsut passes right through me,' or, 'you will have me, but not today,' then you are in command of death. BUT is that the right word?? COMMAND of death (pfft they were my words I put into your mouth werent they lol)? Or is it just a deal with death, a real relationship, that allows you to command intent?
To be a seer is to be deranged - utterly! And to call you crazy (not insane but crazy) is not an insult either. Maybe you got mad at me, but in so doing you dropped your shields a bit and shared your story, at least a glimpse of it. If you are not gettin shaken up a bit or challenged from time to time you are stuck!
If I am reading this right, then you revealed how and why, through what kind of struggles, you had arrived on the warriors path. Your fight is no less valid than someone who struggles against reason, rigidity, and fear (like I do).
I can see you need the warrior's path at least as much as I do if not more, and that will always be the way it is, so you are on the warriors path, YOUR way which isn't always understood by 'reasonable' people like me.
So on death.
I once had a dream that I really did have intent at my command (it was a dream) and that I could get almost anything I wanted. I think a lot of people who lucid dream do that in their dream. In this dream, I would fight a demon, wish something, and then and answer from the dream would come back and say 'granted'. Until...
A dark figure oozed into the dream. So I tried to fight it as it approached me, and literally use my will in the dream to make it go away, every time I did that a voice would come from everywhere and say 'DENIED', and every time it would get closer. This black thing eventually got on top of me, and it had me pinned down with an iron grip that was impossible to break. SO I declared this almost verbatim, "I know that you are my death and you can take me any time, any where," and after I said that all these images flashed of where I might be when it happened, in front of my computer, while walking down the street, while driving, many images flashed by in an instant, and then I said "I know you will have me someday, but not today." Then the thing loosened. It backed off and faded away.
Was I about to die that night I don't know.
So to what you are saying about death...that a car was about to hit you and you talked to your death and said something like..."What if it just passed through me?" And then the car did. Well...yes that sounds hard to beleive but I do not disbelieve you either...If thats right then sorcery is also having a deal with death - a contract of sorts. If you interpret this with the Castaneda books, Don Juan teaches him that we open the gap (where death enters below the navel) when we move the assemblage point or use will. We go through a 'death' when that happens.
SOOO...you mean to say then, that when you are looking at death straight in the eyes, and at that moment you say something like 'well what if I flew instead of fell to my doom', or 'what if the car jsut passes right through me,' or, 'you will have me, but not today,' then you are in command of death. BUT is that the right word?? COMMAND of death (pfft they were my words I put into your mouth werent they lol)? Or is it just a deal with death, a real relationship, that allows you to command intent?