02-08-2017, 12:00 AM
I used to be a very fluid warrior. I had very little self and often lost it daily. I was so fluid that I had no cohesion for many years. Even the words spoken from another would move my weak volition to their position that they spoke to me of. I had power, but it wasnt controlled.
You speak of my old intent to be normal because I was ruined. I wanted escape from my self and desired normality. I achieved that and now I am again back into my dreaming and stalking power I had to make some sacrifices and changes, so I would not be so fluid and out of control, abused and used. I shifted much of my old positions of power into my choice. That is where I stand.
I seek a position that is light as a feather and solid as a rock. Minimal volition of my self, and the speed to move in an instant to one life and into another. I wish, as you say, to lose my self, but have just enough self to move my light and powerful volition to where I want to be. I want to be free. Again. I want to be good, and angelic. Again. I want to be a Saint and a fighter against all that is wrong in my world. I want to freely give my life to save another's. Not just one, but the mass. Again.
I want unconditional love. Loyalty abound. I want desire and passion. Most of all I want to be the man who earns that love and loyalty.
You speak of my old intent to be normal because I was ruined. I wanted escape from my self and desired normality. I achieved that and now I am again back into my dreaming and stalking power I had to make some sacrifices and changes, so I would not be so fluid and out of control, abused and used. I shifted much of my old positions of power into my choice. That is where I stand.
I seek a position that is light as a feather and solid as a rock. Minimal volition of my self, and the speed to move in an instant to one life and into another. I wish, as you say, to lose my self, but have just enough self to move my light and powerful volition to where I want to be. I want to be free. Again. I want to be good, and angelic. Again. I want to be a Saint and a fighter against all that is wrong in my world. I want to freely give my life to save another's. Not just one, but the mass. Again.
I want unconditional love. Loyalty abound. I want desire and passion. Most of all I want to be the man who earns that love and loyalty.

