Fisherman of dreams

[serloco]

As many of you know already i spent long years in the iob world and have been fghting with them for some time. One of their old tricks would be walking up to me everytime i found a new gift or ability and claim that they can do it too. They would pretend to be just like me in hopes that my intent would grant them my abilities and power. FOr years they would steal my dreams and gifts in this way. Turns out the fisherman dont really have much of anything exceot for lies and the hope you believe in them. God showed me a trick to defeat them and that simple trick is to suspend all belief about them. Turns out the iob fisherman dont really have even a home unless you dream one for them. This is why they need you. They need your dreams so they can exist in them. Nowadyas I grant very little to the fisherman. They dont even have a pot to piss in. Now I dont recommend feeding iobs at all unless they are already yoru loyal and trusty allies. That what ios are good for, making allies. But when it coes to fisherman and lies pretending to be me I dont move at all for them anymore. I do feel bad for them tho in a way. They used to have so much from me. They would show me great and powerful images of their abilities and power and I used to believe in them. It led me to being a slave for them. Becareful when dealing with fisherman. Thats right iobs there is only one me n the universe. I wish you well and I hope you find a home.... somewhere else indeed.

[serloco]

[serloco]

So I had my ally sing me a song for the iobs. seems they know my heart very well... Well yeah pure awareness surely sees. They know I hate them, and they know I fight them, and they know in the end I will also help them. They see me and they understand the path of my intent for them. I told them that in the future if they stop being so cold and cruel I will indeed work with them again. This is the song they sung for me.

[rosygyro]

[rosygyro]

serloco wrote:. Thats right iobs there is only one me n the universe. I wish you well and I hope you find a home.... somewhere else indeed.

 It sounds like you wish to discriminate against IOBs.Its understandable- the loss of identity a warrior feels aponmetting his reflection in potential can drive you mad.The sorcerers world and the IOBs dimensionare both permeated and suturated with the remains of dead sorcererswho did not have the required keys to navigate their way through.many of these, those sacrificed on hallucinogens, or murdered by poisonabused by evil shamen while on ahuachaca or soma mushroomsdo not even know they are dead, do not know their ntentis the only life left.HOW do you respect these fine tendrils of lost souls in the IOB worldor the sorcerers world.how can you define or discriminate immpeccably to state your personal spacewhen the space itself is made from lost awarness being formed by a nagual flow?
I encourage you to consider that the sense of self is something all living people haveand to use a different method while in other dimensionsso as to ensure you are not the fisherman of dreams in other peoples lives.lest we end up ina  world where the most stubborn and selfish are the most powerful keepers ofpower as well as self comfort in identity.The way of the Celts and pitts, the picts, the northern wildmen , the druids, the shapeshifters, the seers of life run deepthey were vanquished a full thousand years before the toltec by the very same type of logical aquisition through mind.the spanish inquisition destroyed every lineage of knowledge it could find..the maya, the aztec, the toltec had hundreds of years to make defence before the chores were breachedtheir very same knowledge had timeit is the very same knowledge..and with some----- it is the very same blindness reflected.

[serloco]

I have all that I need inside of me. I am not a fisherman. I am actually making peace again with the IOB's. Its better then war. But they would threaten me and terrorize me and my world, and my people for years. THEY would not let me out and threatened to kill me if I was close. Those days are over now that I have fought hard annd proved myself as a strong warrior and no longer a timid meek tool to be used. I have fortified my body and sealed up my leaks. No longer can they steal from me my dreams. In fact I can now steal THEIRS. I brought their realm to its knees with me and my God. The iobs feared me and many of them took their own lives. I shamed them severely and have broken and destroyed their finest warriors that they sent to me. I did grow tired of fighting everyday and so I made a peace. Nowadays they tell me I can wreck them and destroy them and hurt them so long as I save them afterwards. That is who I am inside. A good man. They know this. But for now I am finished with the iobs and their tricks and traps. I have grown beyond them. I am back on earth again and my body does well on its own.

[serloco]

The ally can be anything, anyone, at any time. The reflection of my potential I have met for years. I would, daily, meet myself in everyone else for years. They used to be. We had pure oneness. It was fun for awhile. Nowadays my loyal allies keep separate identities from myself. They prefer it this way. I do give them many of my gifts and secrets to share. I have allies coming out of the woodwork for me. Even fighting the iobs with me. But like I said I prefer peace. I prefer not meeting myself in everyone else. It is said you can find the Buddha in anyone. You find Satan anywhere, God anywhere, any great master anywhere. So why would I spend all the time looking a my own reflection?

[serloco]

Nice image btw. I learned how to conjure art work, from long dead masters. I just fold space between time and share with them my awareness. One of my blessings is to unite with the dead while they were alive. A trick in time.  I also conjure new art work using allies that manifest into my world. Here is a recent item painted by my awareness. I dont know if you read my expeirence where I conjured many monsters from shadows? Here is the result they painted for me. Its called mind manifestation. I ordered a copy off of ebay just recently. I have all my art work catered to my style of awareness.

[serloco]

Actually the experience from pure awareness beings (iobs) is drawn from your own dreaming awareness and so is different for every dreamer. If you have an idea of what the iob world is then that is the reflection you dream or activate. That is why don Juan did not want to interfere too much with Carlos's dreaming with iobs. That is also why I stopped intending don Juan;s awareness of iobs. I have a split in the iob world, the old iobs and the new iobs. The old ones were as intended as don Juans awareness told me to intend. Traps and tricks and lies and fisherman etc etc. All %!**. Though they did teach you things they never would teach you freedom. MY new iobs do. Those are the ones I ally myself with.

[serloco]

[Guest]

serloco wrote:So I had my ally sing me a song for the iobs. seems they know my heart very well... Well yeah pure awareness surely sees. They know I hate them, and they know I fight them, and they know in the end I will also help them. They see me and they understand the path of my intent for them. I told them that in the future if they stop being so cold and cruel I will indeed work with them again. This is the song they sung for me.




I love that I can communicate so easily with you.  We don't always agree, mind you, but I can speak and you know what I'm saying  Music is a great medium for us.  To answer your question about how you could help me: when I asked for your help, it was to stalk WG.  In a nice way, it was just going to be the two of us posting A LOT.  I planned to show her my message  However, a day or two after I let you know I'd be asking for your help, she addressed the concern I was expressing.  Your help wasn't needed--and I became very busy with the tonal.  Things have settled and I noticed you asked me what I wanted....and I see in your thread here you're also asking.  I thought I would explain now and give you a choice.

The reason your response was a maybe... watch this music video.  You would become the assassin--see it in that light.


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You would have power--all that you sought.  The sacrifice for power is life.  Your life becomes dedicated to humanity--payment for power is not a simple trade.  You're a good enough person, which means it's important to think carefully if you want to pay such a high price. Most do not.  It is often only those who have already died who are willing to pay with their life.  I know you've said you've died many times, and I believe you, but you have many more times to die before you should make that payment for power.  Enjoy life for a while longer, you're in such a rush to get rid of it.  Power is something most seek--but are unwilling to pay for.

A lot of the way you're living would need to change.  You would have to move outside of that comfort zone--and I'm uncertain you're willing to do that.  Part of it requires you have more control over yourself--particularly the emotional aspect.  An expert is in place to help you with this, but you would need to yield to that knowledge and apply it to yourself.  You would need to shed much of your ego and you've done quite a bit of that already, but you would need to shed more...and quickly.  If that's something you want to try, we can do that.  However, if you argue with the expert (who isn't me, don't worry), then you'll miss the opportunity altogether.

Sometimes it's safest to wait until we're more prepared to make such payment.  Not only are you paying a high price, but you'll be alone and without a self.  There are very few able to do that and very few willing to do that.  You're welcome to try.  I would hate to say no to someone who wanted to try.

[serloco]

Ironically, in sync with my life, the game Assassin's creed, came out at the same time I was living in the iob world. They trained me to be an assassin against evil beings. I was a vampiric assassin that would drain the evil life in people and refill it with better life. It was a dark time in my life. They called me the hitman as I could drain people's lives in an instant and force them into any role I wanted almost. They often create video games of my life. They just came out with a recent one called sorcerer. It involves fighting false Gods and killing them. Something I have done many times. Yeah so what? I like to brag and show off. Sue me!

You offer is interesting. It reminds me of my old Buddhist days, and seeking to eradicate my self, and my self-importance as well. I did quite well and remember being without a self. I do however enjoy these days having being me. I love myself greatly. Before further contemplating your offer I would like to ask why the sacrifice of my life for power? I am sure you dont mean sacrifice of the eternal soul, for I would never do that. THAT price is too high for anyone. However I have sacrificed my finite existence, my positions of awareness, many times to do what is right, and in service of humanity. That price is not too high for me. So fill me in a lil on the details. I al always open to learning and trying out new fashions.

[serloco]

[Guest]

That's why your response, when you asked, was a maybe. You have the desire to live a normal life (as normal as anyone has)--one without access to power. Not that you are without power--that's not what I'm saying. There's a very unique layer of power which is more like sorcery. It order to command it you need to be disciplined enough to command yourself. Not only parts of yourself, but all of yourself. That process is where most eventually opt-out. The thing is you don't have to go all the way either. You can go part way--and then stop. Wolf did that. He took time away to have a life. Having a life isn't bad either--it means we don't entirely get to move past "the eagle" (that's such a horrible phrase, but it's what you naguals prefer to use, so meh, it gets my point across).

The fine print requires you abandon a sense of self. I've heard one of the most difficult things for those who make that sacrifice is that when people they love ask them "who are you"--they draw a blank. Some have the ability to love, but they never know themselves because they removed themselves. They can create a new self, but that's not themselves. The absence of self is quite empty. Meaning is removed from life because they have no true point of reference to hold that meaning.

That's why it's easier for people who have a life without meaning to make such a payment. Their sacrifice is less. Right now, you have a lot of meaning in your life. Personally, I suggest you wait. Power will always exist, it's not going anywhere. You can access pieces of power without having to give up the self. You've already done this with music, you understand the movement of energy. I'm uncertain what else you're hoping to achieve. I mean, it's obvious you want power--but the power you want is not a sacrifice worth making (right now). Maybe shift your focus to an area of power which won't demand payment. If not power, what else do you want?

[serloco]

I used to be a very fluid warrior. I had very little self and often lost it daily. I was so fluid that I had no cohesion for many years. Even the words spoken from another would move my weak volition to their position that they spoke to me of. I had power, but it wasnt controlled.

You speak of my old intent to be normal because I was ruined. I wanted escape from my self and desired normality. I achieved that and now I am again back into my dreaming and stalking power I had to make some sacrifices and changes, so I would not be so fluid and out of control, abused and used. I shifted much of my old positions of power into my choice. That is where I stand.

I seek a position that is light as a feather and solid as a rock. Minimal volition of my self, and the speed to move in an instant to one life and into another. I wish, as you say, to lose my self, but have just enough self to move my light and powerful volition to where I want to be. I want to be free. Again. I want to be good, and angelic. Again. I want to be a Saint and a fighter against all that is wrong in my world. I want to freely give my life to save another's. Not just one, but the mass. Again.

I want unconditional love. Loyalty abound. I want desire and passion. Most of all I want to be the man who earns that love and loyalty.

[serloco]

[Guest]

Oh Serloco...I was going to give you tonal-based advice--but that's not it. I'll give you the other sort since it's there...

Listen to this:


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That pull you'll been feeling hasn't been originating from you. You're seeking that because she's seeking you. She's a person, I don't know where she is and you'll have to find her (she won't find you, she's weak). She's not well right now--it could be drugs, but that mind-state could be depression or ..... gah, I can't touch it. It's bad--not evil bad, but she's very unwell. If you don't find her...

-you would need to physically search for her, she can't physically search for you. Stop looking in your usual places--look in the places you wouldn't look for a girlfriend.
-she has been spiritually searching for you, you haven't been listening.
-she's beautiful, her heart and spirituality...she would love you in the way you're seeking to be loved. She would be that person. Just right now she's not that person because of her tonal--but the shift into the person you desire/need occurs once her tonal is resolved.
-you'll know her when you see her (the eyes, your spirit knows her eyes--even if tonal you doesn't know them, when you see them you'll have no question). She will recognize you with certainty. There should be no doubt. She knows you very well. She's psychic. Listen for her clues, they'll sing to you (heh, she likes to sing). The louder you hear her, the more unwell she's becoming. I would just ask her--given how powerful she is, she'll hear your inquiry (hear/feel/know). She'll respond. It'll be your job to listen. Find a better way to listen and be prepared for a lot of walking.

If you find her, please let me know. I'd like to know she's alright.

[serloco]

That is very interesting. I wasnt really talking about a girlfriend tho when I mentioned love and loyalty. I was more speaking of allies and friendship. My people. But of course I would seek these qualities in a woman, a mate, as well.

Funny because I just met a beautiful seeress. She is catering to my thoughts and mind perfectly. She just suffered a hemorage inside of her and had to be rushed to the hospital for emergency surgery. She is in a lo of pain at the moment. She came to me actually. Maybe that is the girl you speak of. She is into everything mystic and spiritual as well.

[Guest]

Uh, that's her. I mean, statistically speaking odds are there aren't two.

Right, and I totally understood what you were asking--and I was preparing to write a response to what you said. Then all that other information came in. So, she found you? Huh. That's not what I saw. That's weird. Okay, so question then, since I'm clearly seeing a different thread of sorts. Help me understand the timeline better, please?

When did you meet her?

How did you meet her?
Where did you meet her?
When did she get sick?

I'm sorry she's unwell. How long has she been at the hospital, has she gone into a coma?

[serloco]

I met her two days ago at the library. I was doing research on some herbal remedies and she came up to me and spoke some of my thoughts aloud to me. I knew she was a gifted seer right off the bat. We been flirting a lil but taking it slow. Then yesterday she hemoraged and now she is recovering from her surgery. She is in a lot of pain but it looks like she will make a full recovery. I find her very sexy and she caters wonderfully o my spirit. Such sweetness in her, which I am a fool for. We already planned a camping trip this spring.

[Guest]

Hmmmm. Well that's good news then. Why was I told all that other !#*+ then? The f.uck is wrong with the universe.

Well, sorry to alarm you then. Seems things are going great. That's intense for a two-day history. I know you probably don't want my advice, but she's the girl you want to marry. Rather, you should marry her. She is very special and she loves you tremendously. She's known you a long time. I would definitely explore the world of sorcery with her, she'll help you with what you're seeking.

Whew, okay--glad there's no follow-up to that.

As to your other things you wrote about--she's going to open those doors for you. I mean, I could write about those things, but she'll do it better and walk you through it. She's patient. I like her--whomever she is and whatever she does is very good. She's brilliant.

Good for you! Congratulations!

[serloco]

Thanks. I am hopeful.

[Guest]

Er, so, I like to err on the side of caution. If it's possible for you to be with her tonight, then you may want to do that. I'm sure she'll be great, but I think it would be a great way to start your relationship with her by staying with her. She already knows you and loves you, so it wouldn't be weird for you to hang out with her. Keep her company. I mean, friends do that. I would do that for any friend. Also, I think it would calm her if you were nearby. Your presence soothes her. So if it's manageable for you to be with her and something you feel like you should do, then consider sleeping there the night.

[Guest]

When you're ready, Serloco, I'm available to you. Just let me know.

[serloco]

I am ready when you are.