08-21-2014, 12:00 AM
WOW--- I was a professional horseplayer with NO safety net, parents to help, or job opportunity going back a ways--a typical bet to win was $2000-$5000. Before I matured I went flat broke twice.
Of course the fish story was only a precursor. And the despondency periods following highs were brutal until I evened out. The out of body followed, and helped. I met my wife and first person of awareness only months apart---those relations lasted a lifetime. The two hated each other because of resentment.
Another of awareness came along (there are a dozen substantial events (mind blowing to most), happenings,and periods throughout), but he was unique because of resulting in nirvana, where reason's control oversees the the ego at PLAY in the highest ENERGY LEVEL. What was amazing to me that the man was advanced enough to pull from me in that state what it was that was happening (he wanted me to explain it to myself why). I say this because I want to let you know I am hearing you serloco.
But, the words aren't getting me to that empirical level I need to understand you. Jolt me.
Of course the fish story was only a precursor. And the despondency periods following highs were brutal until I evened out. The out of body followed, and helped. I met my wife and first person of awareness only months apart---those relations lasted a lifetime. The two hated each other because of resentment.
Another of awareness came along (there are a dozen substantial events (mind blowing to most), happenings,and periods throughout), but he was unique because of resulting in nirvana, where reason's control oversees the the ego at PLAY in the highest ENERGY LEVEL. What was amazing to me that the man was advanced enough to pull from me in that state what it was that was happening (he wanted me to explain it to myself why). I say this because I want to let you know I am hearing you serloco.
But, the words aren't getting me to that empirical level I need to understand you. Jolt me.