Casual Conversation

[serloco]

When you discover the immobility of every moment in time, occurring right now, as well as being in motion from every and any point, you see infinite time. You can read a book and absorb all the knowledge within it, the exact realizations, thoughts, ideas, that made the book, translated into the words of the book. All the energy is within the book already. And yet when you read it, or absorb the awareness, you can also expand upon it, and send your own ideas to the author, through time, and have your own awareness manifest into the book. You can merge your consciousness with the author as they are writing the book, no matter how long ago they wrote it. Its amazing yes. You'd be amazed at what I have done through this technique. You can do it with any media, and any form of reality, and so not even need a physical medium to connect to the past, or future, all you need is your attention set in a way that sees time is happening right now. Then you can stream awareness form all the greatests in time, merge them into your awareness, and become a totality of masters within you. It is like having savants, genius', master all within you and your thought pathways become merge with their own.

[Billy]

WOW--- I was a professional horseplayer with NO safety net, parents to help, or job opportunity going back a ways--a typical bet to win was $2000-$5000. Before I matured I went flat broke twice.
Of course the fish story was only a precursor. And the despondency periods following highs were brutal until I evened out. The out of body followed, and helped. I met my wife and first person of awareness only months apart---those relations lasted a lifetime. The two hated each other because of resentment.

Another of awareness came along (there are a dozen substantial events (mind blowing to most), happenings,and periods throughout), but he was unique because of resulting in nirvana, where reason's control oversees the the ego at PLAY in the highest ENERGY LEVEL. What was amazing to me that the man was advanced enough to pull from me in that state what it was that was happening (he wanted me to explain it to myself why). I say this because I want to let you know I am hearing you serloco.

But, the words aren't getting me to that empirical level I need to understand you. Jolt me.

[serloco]

Well I have some more to share with you now. Another treat taught to me by IOB's, allies. When I studied gambling, horse races, cards etc I learned to suspend all awareness of game before entering into it. I would gaze across the street at the horse races and see that the inside of the building was empty, void, as well as all the attributes of the horses, the players, the cards etc. I can then focus my attention onto them and 'fill' the space with my own values. I see that the horse is unfilled potential as of yet, and is forming to my own knowledge and awareness of the horse, player, cards etc. At this point I would channel the awareness, the values, I wanted to assign to the emptyness within all things. Even the horses names manifest in synchronization to match my awareness. There is no history in this position, just right now. Even the cards in my opponents hands are empty until the moment my eyes lay onto them, or the moment my attention forms them. So are the players, the dealers etc. I can focus on a dealer and control his motion, his ability and focus the intent and knowledge that say the player wants me to win, as well as the dealer etc. And so long as i do not waver then that is the essence of attention that the moment unfolds from. Intent is indifferent, so long as you do not judge it and form it into another way, meaning that the players do not have desire to win, the dealer is not trying to take your money etc, until you form that knowledge and awareness into them, then they will move to that design. It is fluid and shifting in this moment. Listen within. Control your judgements and knowledge about the game and every detail within it. It is no longer gambling then, it is controlling and knowing. A stalker calculates, and sets the battlefield himself. I know many forms of knowledge to control cards etc, and to many designs. People are mysterious. As is everything. "Time is the essence of attention."-don Juan. These positions I show you now, must be stalked and formed, hunted and set with intent, and if you do then power will build and grow and you will disciver cohesion in these positions or states. Like a snowball rolling down a hill. We used to break casino's with this knowledge, empty them out, and fill them with whatever we wanted to happen within them. It takes practice tho.

I am all over the place today, very busy, doing many things, my attention is split as I am in the process of moving into a new place, a beautiful l rich house. My last residence I commanded for free, and was offered residency in an old beautiful church that was also a school, or used to be. It was huge, full of rooms, a gym, music room and many things. Now I am moving again into a nice rich neighbourhood that I and some others manifested thorugh the knowledge of fusion of attention, called fusion homes. same deal, empty it, then fill it again. We also use Solterra, which is a form of Sun, or light and dark knowledge to manifest reality, and homes. I have made castles too, but am not there right now. Crystal castles even manifesting in an overlap of reality, overlapping the spaces and objects, overriding them and being apart from reality. I could go on forever, but as I said I have much to do. more to come later if you are around. Sorry but is all for now.

[serloco]

Every thought you have about reality, about everything in it, is being absorbed and aligned to form that reality, or perception. Your every idea about gambling, disease, future, past, food, anything, is aligning into your assemblage position. With self-awareness you can see your own ideas, your own reality within you, and suspend what you do not want to form, and free it to form into a new way, a controlled way. This is stalking awareness. Reality around you is aware of your every energy, your every judgement, and is indifferent to them, meaning it will form them no matter what they are. However you can form judgements that say reality wants to help you, teach you, expand you, and then it will do so. It is alive and aware. It is everything, every possibility, always and forever. Alive and dead, immortal, and infinite.

[Billy]

serloco, that was good enough.  An interesting story for you.  I had made plans for betting horses in Las Vegas race books when 30+ years when I got A DUI ticket.  I made up my mind to skip my court date, (become a fugitive for no reason other than to exercise my will)   My mother begged an attorney friend of mine to contact me in Vegas as the date passed knowing I could not come back to Ohio.  I did come back and the attorney knew the judge, so the matter was fixed after a fine.

   Having made the commitment to Vegas as I did, I created the vision of what I intended to do.  What racetrack I would play, the condo rental for an entire meet, how much money I would have, How much I would bet, the patience I would exhibit to settle in before a single wager, and so on.  What happened became my worst nightmare, because I collapsed on myself.  I went a year before I had the amount set, did not have the place I envisioned, got to the track and bet the first thing without reason, then fucking completely panicked and imploded.  It took me years to save painting houses what I just lost in an hour on a few races.  I destroyed myself.  It was the first time in my life I wanted to give up betting horses, and had to go with my tail between my legs to my parents home having to hear "I TOLD YOU SO."  Many months later, for the first time I went to see the Ohio Derby.  A horse that ran the day I went broke down south, was running.  I took no money (I had very little to be sure).  The horse that won the race gave me goose bumps because he dominated--The horse's name was SKIP TRIAL.  I did not make any connection at first to my life situation.  But I hurried up to find some houses to paint to get a little money.  I knew this horse would show up in the big leagues.  The Ohio derby is a pittance compared to good stakes races in New York and better ones elsewhere, so the odds would be generous.

    What happened freaked me out.  Not only does the trainer move the horse up a grade, but he takes the horse to a BIG Monmouth Park race where the Kentucky Derby winner and also another horse that is the Belmont Stakes winner are entered and commited to run.  NOW I HAVE to believe, and do make the connection that the meaning of my life is on the line.  I am in the most miserable situation living at my parents, and coming back broke again is going to make that a nightmare.  Will my horse beat the Kentucky Derby winner Spend A Buck and Belmont Stakes winner Creme Fraiche?  Decisions?   
 
  I got in a car and drove ten hours.  When I got into the Monmouth Racetrack Parking lot I had to pull over before finding a parking space because I broke down crying.  I wailed so hard it actually hurt my guts.   EVERYTHING that I ever was got condensed into a wonderous existential crying jag.
 
  SKIP TRIAL was 35 to 1.  I actually turned my head down in defeat, because when my horse was making his run he got blocked and taken up.  I did not believe the horse could overcome that.  When people became screaming because horses were coming to the finish, I looked up and SKIP TRIAL was all by himself.

   I took that money and money I made painting houses for another year and returned to the racetrack I went broke at. I got the condo I wanted, had the money I wanted, and had the set amount for win bets at $2000.
AGAIN my life got put on the line. I was trying too hard.  After a month I had made seven straight losing bets or net loss $14,000.  Do you know how many houses I would have to paint back then to make that money?

   After the seventh loss, I told myself I had enough grounding to make a plan then see it through no matter the consequences and that I wasn't going anywhere.  I relaxed after that and become solid.  The last day of this meet my awareness friend the gambler was there.  We are leaving the condo and I leave the binoculars on the table.  He tells me I am a jerk because I have an empty case in my hand.  I tell him matter-of-fact I will need it to hold the money.  I have a horse in their big closing stakes race.  I have already made a dining reservation with a reserved table.  That night, then Governor Bill Clinton and Hillary are sitting at a table across no more than fifteen feet.  The head waiter and the violinists gravitate to our table.  It is the center, because my friend is handing out money like candy from what I had given him.  I had twent five thousand in the binocular case.

[serloco]

Yeah very cool story, thanks for sharing. SKIP TRIAL is exactly what i am referring to. And to add you may use my energy to form your reality how you wish, including your history. I am very used to this alignment in this dimension. Just do not expect me to stay, hehe. I would do the same, make the horses names all depicting my best awareness' and then choose the greatest position name, the one that will win in that arrangement.

However i have since found better ways to make money, such as manifesting an empty house, full of gold and diamond jewelery, and loads of cash, fur coats, and other such valuables. I can manifest them to exact standards. Even make the door unlocked. I plan every detail of this manifestation and then enter into it. My last grab left me with a full duffel bag loaded with gold and diamonds. As i said when there is no reality any reality may be formed, or filled into this void potential. My attention fills the space. I am stalking now realities where oney is not needed at all, and manifestation is all that is needed, so we can simply make what we want when we need it. I have been battling the monetary system for quite some time, as a tyrant ready to fall. We erase price tags, and create our own prices, fill dollar stores with incredible items. make diamond studded clothing in second hand shops, make 2000 computers 100 dollars, etc. Make banking machines and systems to fill money into accounts, as well as drain greedy corporations of all their money and holdings. Reform scanners to lower prices that charge less for the items. And much more too. Indifference is key here. Thats why our banks say 'you are richer then you think' because when you see that reality forms to your expectations, and knowledge to align reality here and now then you can manifest more money then you think you have. We are sometimes subtle in our manifestations, messages, but we spread our awareness to the public in various different ways. We even have manifested brand new banks that are destroyed inside, exploded, and with a sign that says amongst the rubble this bank is being renovated to suit YOUR desires. We can be quite classy in our manifestations. One of our new phrases is to rethink reality, rethink mental illness, madness, disease, the internet etc etc, a new catch phrase among my people, or reality. Its quite a dream we live in, and I sure do love it. Oh to be aware!!

[Billy]

I am absorbing the empiricism now.  I am teachable.

[Billy]

Thank you serloco--
                         Billy

[serloco]

You are very welcome, and I am glad to see you open now.

[serloco]

You are very welcome. I am glad to see you open now.

[Billy]

serloco, since you responded twice the same message I will assume one is the male side, the other the female.  If you decide to visit me in the dream state please come as a beautiful female.

[serloco]

HA! Very clever. Thanks for the laugh.

[serloco]

btw i have also become the true form of androgynous. As asexual, needing not either individual sex in order to propagate, or to create. I can now merge both sexes into one form, even in a state that appears only male or female in appearance. I can also splice my genes in order to attribute specific and exact traits from nearly any being in creation. Merging into myself, as well as into others, the specific traits I wish to form. It is a form of attention, that utilizes an advanced form of mirror neuron to channel these spliced traits into an unformed, undifferentiated 'stem cell'., or embryo upon which the selected seed grows into. The unformed potential of time, the present flowing into the unformed future is as an undifferentiated stem cell, or wide open and free egg, upon which the focus of intent and attention's contents develops to form into the 'free potential'. The mere focus of attention and intent into this free space, unformed undifferentiated cell, (unformed potential) then merges the attributes into form. It is also an advanced doppleganger state., much like mystic from x-men, that merges the best of many different life forms. Again I have not mastered this form, but have succeeded greatly in it many times. It comes close to immaculate conception. In one dimension the people present were advanced genetic engineers and could master their babies lives before they were born, pre-planning much of their lives. I remember signs in the street celebrating this awareness and knowledge saying ''my baby is going to be a biogenetic engineer!!'' It made me laugh. We also developed biomatter and transformation process of bio to matter and vice versa, synthetic skin, and even humans transforming into robot-like creations. Living machines. Crazy I know. I did it myself.

[Billy]

I actually do have enough indifference to read you seriously.  The word open you used earlier to describe my obtained empiricism is a beneficial quality for me.  It make no 'difference' that I DO take messages from you literally from this point forward.  I am going to learn a great deal.  If I write later, may I use the material attributing the source as anonymous?

[serloco]

yes it is beneficial for sure. that's how I have learned the exact teachings of don Juan and many master's, by believing in them and accepting them at face value. You must give reality to experience reality.

You may use my knowledge and awareness in your writing, sure.

[Billy]

quantumshaman and others:  I respectfully ask your permission to let me use this thread-- promise I won't move over into other ones.  Serloco, thanks for use of your awareness.

I'll mention again about foreign installations or flyers in whatever form (real or symbolic or irrelevant).  Serloco hinted that at some point if I understood correctly, that these can be welcomed back.  If not, I am saying that.  But that is a long way off for most.  Detachment as I know it is a freeing of shackles, and once they're off--they're off.

 I never understood why people buy into self-help books to gain better conditions.  This misses the point.  I made up my mind a long time ago that what it is, as is, has to be good.  I took this all the way.  I said good can become bad, but the worst cannot be come 'worser.'  A decade ago I got my first real test.  I stupidly messed with a prostitute one day carelessly.  I went and did all the tests, but I felt a need to punish my stupidity--and despair came knocking at my door.  I EASILY could have detached, but made a momentus decision> I wanted to go to hell and pay.  The only thing I had was the outside idea, a MAYBE TRUST this will work itself out.   OH JESUS did I ever pay--I had little experience other than a break-up with a girl following my 'college zen' when it comes to a truly depressive state.  The deeper I went, the deeper I went.  Forlorn was a kind word at one point.   Then 3:00 AM I get a call from my wife's sister that her brother committed suicide.  Only one of my wife's sisters is a bit crazy and represented herself as another sister.  They sound identical, and the sister really was in hysterics, but the call was a hoax.  However, in the moments after I simply decided my despair was over, and the Castaneda phrase 'in the blink of an eye' comes to mind--that quick it was over completely.

So I continued to go to dark places when the timing was right--- SO THAT IS HOW SHAME GOT IN PLAY>  who the f in their right mind would EVER go THERE?  I have such a grin on my face, OMG I never expected the payoff to be so RICH.  AND the sexy part is just a side bonus.  I think I could attract any woman on the planet.  That's not true maybe, but I FEEL that way-- and it sure can't hurt where those things are concerned.  Know what I mean?

I really did try for self-hatred at the same time.  I just do not have any.    Please somebody---show some self-confidence and try the shame practice.  (Thank me if you do)  If you need help and ask for an email I'll help.

So serloco, while I might like buying my wife that Jaguar she has always wanted, my interest with you is that next place.  There are'nt many (if any persons) that have things easier than myself, and I do ask myself some WHYS.  WHY am a finding an agent for my book---WTF do I care?  WHY do I suddenly find myself posting here?   WHY do I mess with some lunatic (laughing) whose name letters end in loco? 

By the way serloco, I expect you to say you won't take more ENERGY from me, than I get back.

[serloco]

billy and serloco in bold wrote:
I'll mention again about foreign installations or flyers in whatever form (real or symbolic or irrelevant).  Serloco hinted that at some point if I understood correctly, that these can be welcomed back.  If not, I am saying that.  But that is a long way off for most. Here you have cursed your fellow man, and remained in a limited dimension in which you formed at  this very point, while only suporting yourself.  The Buddha can be found in anyone at any time, and with power you can bring out the best in all people, and suspend your limiting judgements and forms of negative energy to your fellow man.  A nagual learns that his awareness and perception of his fellow man moves their awareness into the position they are in, thus a nagual suspends his judgements, his knowledge and awareness to free thw position of his fellow man. It is the force of his awareness and perception that does this. Try to understand this. Detachment as I know it is a freeing of shackles, and once they're off--they're off.

 I never understood why people buy into self-help books to gain better conditions. Because people get help and good knowledge from these books, and many people have great insight if you allow them to. This misses the point. Even if you buy a book to help yourself you are still investing your trust, faith and power in this way. You are still forming to this way and path, and following it, even if you are unaware of it. No matter where on e turns for help they are helping themselves.  

So serloco, while I might like buying my wife that Jaguar she has always wanted, my interest with you is that next place.  There are'nt many (if any persons) that have things easier than myself, and I do ask myself some WHYS. Again Your energy is only supporting yourself, as well as perceived disconnection to your fellow man. You sustain this form of reality for yourself. You sustain this knowledge and perception of the world you live in, you accept that this is true and will continue, There are many ways to bless your fellow man, as well as to share your insight, energy, and potential with them if you seek that way. If you could see that the world around you is much larger then you, knows more then you, then you will have shrunken your tonal and expanded the world around you. Then you will have much to learn from the infinity that surrounds you. 

By the way serloco, I expect you to say you won't take more ENERGY from me, than I get back. I have an abundance of energy within me and do not need yours. I have more then I need and have learned to generate dark energy with my own knowledge and body. I have taken nothing from you and I do not drain people. 

 

 My comments are in bold.

[serloco]

If things come so easy for you then it should equally be so to bless your fellow man, to share with them your success and knowledge, as well as seeing them in a new light.

[serloco]

Tell me this... does a crazy man know they are crazy, or call themselves crazy....

[Billy]

Do you believe that I will tell you the truth?  I just wrote that and pulled some weeds, rode a bicycle a few hundred yards, and could not wait to post again.  I began to think almost exactly what you just said though vaguely.  I thought, do not leave the last comment to chance that you are not telling this person how much you have already received.  And I was and am making THAT clear.  My gratitude. 

  AND yet the other comments are on the mark too.  I was going to (am) writing to say that the comments (if I continue making them in the ignarant vein pointed out) were subsidiary to staying visible to yourself.

AND I am shaking my head with a wry smile, that you will never be able to disappoint me.  WHY?  You tell me--- you are practically in my head (smiling).

GREAT STUFF!

[Billy]

Those pieces you just did made me SEE exactly.

[Billy]

There is a simple zen parable where the student is talking and talking. The Master pours tea overfilling the boy's cup, at which the boy proclaims the cup is already full.

It is not about you; it is about the world being able to teach me------- How can it? My cup is full.

I EMPTIED THAT CUP!

[serloco]

I am glad you see and are honest about what you see. Thank you for that. I hear your energies inside of me, and so i can SEE your truth. But at times i have many different channels in me and do not always see the source of their origins, usually i can tho. I also see the telepathic channel within yourself, that you are seeing me as well, although i am unsure if you are aware of this connection at this time and if you perceive it as your own conscious energy, as some people often do. Yes I am a seer, and am telepathic in many different forms of telepathy too. Though i do not always enjoy being so open to everything around me and so work at times to close my consciousness off from the world. I live in a mostly telepathic dimension where the people around me are aware of my conscious awareness and often teach me great things beyond myself. However some times I am in a average human dimension and find the channels full of evil and limitations, conditioning etc.

btw i read most of the threads in this forum and so you can post in other threads and i will most likely see it, and if i have something to contribute i usually do so, so long as they are open.

No, I most likely will not disappoint you, and it seems you have little of the self-importance that gets easily offended when something is pointed out to you. A good quality, being open and listening beyond the ego. Thus you learn and do not form attention to defend yourself and curse the ways pointed out to you that could potentially better your position. Why do you know this... well because you are seeing energy and awareness and it forms into your self(awareness) and you are aware of it as you see it. Some may call it intuition, i do not, I call it awareness of what is real, in essence of what is before you. not to mention as a practitioner of controlled folly you can also set this way with your intent, which is a very good form of awareness that supports yourself and myself. An energy that I will accept into me form you.

[Billy]

I notice a few times you use the word form where I am thinking from--- that's intentional, yes?  Or just a regular typo?

I liked your notation about one being crazy.  For the record my reference was a lapse of judgement simply because I was born with **** for brains--sorry.

[serloco]

no worries dude. yeah i often typo the word from and form. bad habit. however i once was in a state that saw all typos as manifestations of the spirit and truth, omens, and saw some incredible typos in that state.