10-31-2014, 12:04 AM
What you just said I know perfectly, and am SEEing empirically too. Even back almost forty years to the few college LSD tries I stayed firmly in the first attention, as freaky as events played out.
I need to tell you I have not moved from the first attention even with your jolts of knowledge (except that wedding ?) , BUT within the first attention there is a major shift in my basic experience of reality---of course the familial separation I had was needed (AND yet nothing really ever changed excepting my initial attachments to that perception--- AND that was heavy on my 61 year old organism--and has been accompanied by an unecessary attachment of sorts to that concern>HEALTH.
Many recent manifestations are 'disadvantageous' and challenging--but I have this NOW NATURAL staunchness. Other than some anxiety about HEALTH (not so much mortality), I have minimal anxiety. You facilitated my decent amount of detachment way further on.
serloco I want the motions of energy and FEELING of that energy to go to my chest area INSTEAD of the abdominal area (where I used to invite it); THIS is what I NOW know I meant when I said "How do I stay there?">(in the 'cold/smiling' heart/ this bodily area is much more suited to what you just spoke of/ yes?). What I mean is, how much work do I need to do; what do I NEED to do about the illusionary whispers {By the way, you are good-really good--I almost always get you exactly (sometimes not immediately, but afterwards as experience tells me, which is the best way-- I think Littlepaw is gaining some knowledge too).
Some day, if you want me to try some dialogue to penetrate YOUR self or add what I think is possibly knowledge--say so. Though I wrote some, I did not go where I would want to go 'deeper'. I realize I was simply writing nonsense to keep engagement. I don't need to do that, do I? We are very parallel at the core of self-trusting--you know that. I can intend whatever when time, as can you for sure.
I need to tell you I have not moved from the first attention even with your jolts of knowledge (except that wedding ?) , BUT within the first attention there is a major shift in my basic experience of reality---of course the familial separation I had was needed (AND yet nothing really ever changed excepting my initial attachments to that perception--- AND that was heavy on my 61 year old organism--and has been accompanied by an unecessary attachment of sorts to that concern>HEALTH.
Many recent manifestations are 'disadvantageous' and challenging--but I have this NOW NATURAL staunchness. Other than some anxiety about HEALTH (not so much mortality), I have minimal anxiety. You facilitated my decent amount of detachment way further on.
serloco I want the motions of energy and FEELING of that energy to go to my chest area INSTEAD of the abdominal area (where I used to invite it); THIS is what I NOW know I meant when I said "How do I stay there?">(in the 'cold/smiling' heart/ this bodily area is much more suited to what you just spoke of/ yes?). What I mean is, how much work do I need to do; what do I NEED to do about the illusionary whispers {By the way, you are good-really good--I almost always get you exactly (sometimes not immediately, but afterwards as experience tells me, which is the best way-- I think Littlepaw is gaining some knowledge too).
Some day, if you want me to try some dialogue to penetrate YOUR self or add what I think is possibly knowledge--say so. Though I wrote some, I did not go where I would want to go 'deeper'. I realize I was simply writing nonsense to keep engagement. I don't need to do that, do I? We are very parallel at the core of self-trusting--you know that. I can intend whatever when time, as can you for sure.