07-25-2011, 12:01 AM
These are great questions Wolf. I am addressing first the one about living in an apartment in a city because I have such experience. I lived in a city of around 120,000 for seven years and loved it overall because I had open, flexible AP friends and roommates there. Places of power were created by people and the quality of friendships with them. The community of soul(s) created openings for spirit to come in, also a large old beautiful elm tree at best friend's home and the wildish yard full of fruit trees, raspberries, naturally farmed vegetables, medicinal and edible "weeds", sways of longish grass and creeping charlie blossoms and beautifully painted front porch, kids swing, good music, dancing meditation, great conversation in our little home in the ghetto; the only neighborhood you might get away with letting beautiful wild yards be wild because the zone-ing board doesn't pay so much attention and the neighbors aren't worried about "devaluing" of their "property". Also, this city had great alleys and I spent long days foraging for wild foods there, peach trees hanging over backyard fences, garlic patches that crept their way outside of fence boundaries and the like. Good parks were there too, woodsy and hilly. I dropped out of the mainstream, worked just enough to divide rent with roommates(about 10 to 15 hours weekly) and spent not so much on vegetables plus dumpster dived for perfectly good food that the waster system throws away, didn't buy luxury items or items that some people might think they need like paper towels, chemical cleaners, and laundry soap(baking soda works pretty good). Didn't watch television or pay any mind to mainstream media,didn't have a phone, didn't own a car, no bank account; walked, biked, or bused where I needed to go--life for the most part without a clock, a devise that works hard at stabilizing most APs to HERD Hard Work with little reward and no time for quiet mind open heart spirit-connection.
I have lived in a more rural town since then for about five years and I find less power here because I haven't met such people here and there aren't many alleys or woodsy parks either. I visit often there and as soon as the time comes I will be living there or someplace similar once again. A rural homesteading community would also be nice.
What am I? I am less identified with my internal dialogue and habitual patterns than I once was, still self-stalking to lessen the hold they have on me, I observe or witness and sometimes a nice open space comes in. This knowledge+practice gives space for awe and magickk.
I have lived in a more rural town since then for about five years and I find less power here because I haven't met such people here and there aren't many alleys or woodsy parks either. I visit often there and as soon as the time comes I will be living there or someplace similar once again. A rural homesteading community would also be nice.
What am I? I am less identified with my internal dialogue and habitual patterns than I once was, still self-stalking to lessen the hold they have on me, I observe or witness and sometimes a nice open space comes in. This knowledge+practice gives space for awe and magickk.

