02-01-2014, 12:00 AM
imo there are two ways.. one is youre thoroughly dissatisfied with things as they otherwise are or you love the path so much that you cannot imagine anything else.
It is not an issue where you are, unless it is, meaning that sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do and go where you gotta go as part of it all. In general though being in civilization is where the challenges are and a warrior does not run from challenges. Best, Id say is to get some of both settings. Being in town should not hinder you from practising silence, stalking and dreaming.
I see you say that you feel you have forgotten something important, as if you are missing something. But you also say that the thought of leaving society brings about a powerful sadness. One can put those together, but for some reason reading I thought of two things, not one. Reading the just latter part I was reminded how one of the reasons why leaving society gives a deep emotion of sadness can be because one feels it would be leaving. leaving that life that one has been having, leaving it for good. And letting go can be sad, if one decides to walk the path for good, so to speak, then one might feel the letting go like this. Reading the first part I wondered if you distinguish between longing and sadness.. Cause it would make sense to me if you were longing for what you say you seem to be missing and that can be used as a driving force. But to be sad about it is different.
Humans are, by nature, not solitary creatures.. we were not meant to live somewhere in a cave without human contact . And the days of doing that to become enlightened etc are thought to be past us too. The seekers of today have different challenges. (Saying that though I need to point out that being alone with oneself is important..)
Coming back to what you were saying, if going away from the city is you way of declaring things for yourself/spirit, well.. Look inside and understand where this sadness is coming from and what it brings and means. You know what is true, just ask yourself .
In the meantime, I suggest taking walks.. 'tis a very important thing, useful on many levels. As you walk you can practice silence, gazing, attention, recap, self-stalking, etc.
It is not an issue where you are, unless it is, meaning that sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do and go where you gotta go as part of it all. In general though being in civilization is where the challenges are and a warrior does not run from challenges. Best, Id say is to get some of both settings. Being in town should not hinder you from practising silence, stalking and dreaming.
I see you say that you feel you have forgotten something important, as if you are missing something. But you also say that the thought of leaving society brings about a powerful sadness. One can put those together, but for some reason reading I thought of two things, not one. Reading the just latter part I was reminded how one of the reasons why leaving society gives a deep emotion of sadness can be because one feels it would be leaving. leaving that life that one has been having, leaving it for good. And letting go can be sad, if one decides to walk the path for good, so to speak, then one might feel the letting go like this. Reading the first part I wondered if you distinguish between longing and sadness.. Cause it would make sense to me if you were longing for what you say you seem to be missing and that can be used as a driving force. But to be sad about it is different.
Humans are, by nature, not solitary creatures.. we were not meant to live somewhere in a cave without human contact . And the days of doing that to become enlightened etc are thought to be past us too. The seekers of today have different challenges. (Saying that though I need to point out that being alone with oneself is important..)
Coming back to what you were saying, if going away from the city is you way of declaring things for yourself/spirit, well.. Look inside and understand where this sadness is coming from and what it brings and means. You know what is true, just ask yourself .
In the meantime, I suggest taking walks.. 'tis a very important thing, useful on many levels. As you walk you can practice silence, gazing, attention, recap, self-stalking, etc.