Staying on the path of a Warrior

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Well after reading everyones comments I started to let my mind wander and I found myself on the Modern Nagulism section. I was going though some of the videos in the Modern Nagulism and I think I came across what kind of process is going on inside me. I think I still have a hard time with processing my own feelings into something meaningful, but im working on it. In the meantime, I listen to what other people have to say and somehow Im able to find out what feels right in what they are saying and apply it to what is going on in my internal processes.Anyway Chris Douglas, he talks about when people grow in awareness you are torn between to states of reality, higher awareness and the doings of the world. I feel torn between these two worlds and Im afraid to give up either of them for the other. He says trying to two at the same time a real hard. Its like in order for me to continue down this path, im going to have to give up some things about myself that are not serving me. Its like im cutting myself off from the higher awareness to be in the world of every day to a certain extent. Not that I cant be in the world of people and be in a higher awareness, but involving myself in the doings of the world cuts me off from higher awareness. I think that is closer to the truth of whats happening. http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=pl ... fll5MxK0Ds