08-27-2008, 12:00 AM
I was reading the Fire From Within and came upon this:
"When the nagual pushes that point," he went on, "the point ends up any which way along man's band, but it absolutely doesn't matter
where, because wherever it ends up is always virgin ground.
"the grand test that the new seers developed for their warrior-apprentices is to retrace the journey that their assemblage points took under the influence
of the nagual. This retracing, when it is completed, is called regaining the totality of oneself."
This hit me in a way that it never had before. I realize it is what I am supposed to do.
I had looked at it as a way to remember dreaming and what has gone on in that realm of practice. This is partially because of a feeling that I have and have
experienced that something or someone has been teaching me during dreaming. I sometimes even wake up "knowing things" that I did not before.
But this is not the entirety of this "retracing the journey." For myself, what is more important here is to re-experience the Spiritual experiences
that I have had. To retrace the methods and thoughts and meditations that brought them on.
"the point ends up any which way along man's band, but it absolutely doesn't matter where,"
This has been my experience in the past. My experiences have been "all over the map" so to speak. But I remembered two things my teacher said which
fit these two methods together.
1. "Sometimes a student is given an experience that is wayyy beyond their abilities." ...and...
2. "To repeat an experience all you have to do is remember the feeling."
I am going to work on this and also add some more here of what I see as the "warrior's task" or as don Juan calls it here the "grand
test."
I have some more thoughts, but have to go to work right now. Later!
"When the nagual pushes that point," he went on, "the point ends up any which way along man's band, but it absolutely doesn't matter
where, because wherever it ends up is always virgin ground.
"the grand test that the new seers developed for their warrior-apprentices is to retrace the journey that their assemblage points took under the influence
of the nagual. This retracing, when it is completed, is called regaining the totality of oneself."
This hit me in a way that it never had before. I realize it is what I am supposed to do.
I had looked at it as a way to remember dreaming and what has gone on in that realm of practice. This is partially because of a feeling that I have and have
experienced that something or someone has been teaching me during dreaming. I sometimes even wake up "knowing things" that I did not before.
But this is not the entirety of this "retracing the journey." For myself, what is more important here is to re-experience the Spiritual experiences
that I have had. To retrace the methods and thoughts and meditations that brought them on.
"the point ends up any which way along man's band, but it absolutely doesn't matter where,"
This has been my experience in the past. My experiences have been "all over the map" so to speak. But I remembered two things my teacher said which
fit these two methods together.
1. "Sometimes a student is given an experience that is wayyy beyond their abilities." ...and...
2. "To repeat an experience all you have to do is remember the feeling."
I am going to work on this and also add some more here of what I see as the "warrior's task" or as don Juan calls it here the "grand
test."
I have some more thoughts, but have to go to work right now. Later!