11-14-2010, 12:00 AM
Personally, I have 'died' or walked out and walked in again, several times this lifetime.
My being has extracted itself from the web into the dark space and chosen again, without too much disruption to the vessel. It caused all sorts of changes in this creative playground but each time the struggle to hold ones own ‘hum’ has been easier as you shed the emotional addictions of the last consciousness.
It is hard to explain this process to you, it has happened for me in several ways.
The 1st time was 6 hours after birth, the 2nd time was when I was in my cot as a toddler. The 3rd time was when I moved home at 5 years old. The 4th time was when I was six and prostrated myself on the ground in my garden, like a nun.
The 5th time was when I was eight and I was introduced to my Nagual. The 6th time was when I was 10 and I experienced a 'burning bush/elohim being' and I absorbed it. The 7th time was when I was 15, at I had another burning bush experience. (cleansing this time), The 8th time is when I was 20 and I asked to die after being heart broken by someone.
The 9th time was when I was 26, after my children went to live with their father and I asked to die. The 10th time was when I was living with a partner and it happened overnight, to such an effect that I didn’t know, who he was in the morning. It was the end of that relationship. The 11th time was a conscious dying process where I said consciously goodbye to everything in my reality over a three week period. The 12th time was when I suffered an entopic pregnancy and I knew before the operation, that I would try and follow the baby out of my body. I aspirated in theatre and they had to suck out my lungs. I was on oxygen and nebulisers for five days.
The most recent 13th time was in september (2010) when i went through the whole process consciously, as if a 'novice', both the purging of the internal, the past, the annihilation of my marriage, my future, my created creams, my contracts....everything...the internal /external became the nothing. i am just starting from scratch again. i was told that this was done this way so that i could assist others in the process.I wrote the whole thing down.
You get the picture. I am not the spirit that was born to my earth parents, I am not even the spirit that gave birth to any of my 4 children. I am not the spirit that was a child and I am not the spirit that married my husband. I am renewed each time to make or continue choices I have made before. Each time however, I had either asked for it to happen, or knew it was necessary to happen in some way.
so why does it happen?.it could be a negotiated swap...a soul/spirit comes down and wants out,so a swap is negotiated and made. this i have done a few times (the younger walk outs) this is the possible way Carlos slipped out and a spirit chose to die for him.(this may explain confusion/illness/normal death/personality changes before he went...i dont know the stories..and i don't really care...Carlos is still about for those connected to him anyway...as is any other 'consciousness')
i have also been told that this will happen to me when my vessel dies, that before the event on the physical, a willing and loving spirit will inhabit my body to do that bit for 'me'... so i can.."slip out whole..consciousness intact" lol.
i used to leave a note in my diary as a teen in case i 'spontaneously combusted' it was a real possibility to me. i was so concerned that my family would find only my shoes and search for me for years...that i wrote a note explaining what i had done in there, as i knew they would probably search and read it after my 'disappearance'.
I have been told that now,for me, it is part of the bigger picture contract, that humanity in its evolution requires new energies to be anchored in the physical and some vessels are used for this purpose. A lot of my work is on the Galactic level. and every time it needs to happen, the lower end of the spectrum is dropped (emotional and physical attachments) the spirit incoming, has to search the vessel in cellular memory, to know 'how' the vassel is supposed or is associated with things and people in the external...and then chooses again (often new) associations, that will assist with it's particular purpose here on earth. for example...relationships get dropped if they no longer serve the highest good.
i trust this makes sense. as i have said before i am learning to express my 'being' from the nothing, on this physical level...so questions assist me to do that...if you have any...feel free.....it assists me in being the best i can be...xxx
Shamanka
xx
My being has extracted itself from the web into the dark space and chosen again, without too much disruption to the vessel. It caused all sorts of changes in this creative playground but each time the struggle to hold ones own ‘hum’ has been easier as you shed the emotional addictions of the last consciousness.
It is hard to explain this process to you, it has happened for me in several ways.
The 1st time was 6 hours after birth, the 2nd time was when I was in my cot as a toddler. The 3rd time was when I moved home at 5 years old. The 4th time was when I was six and prostrated myself on the ground in my garden, like a nun.
The 5th time was when I was eight and I was introduced to my Nagual. The 6th time was when I was 10 and I experienced a 'burning bush/elohim being' and I absorbed it. The 7th time was when I was 15, at I had another burning bush experience. (cleansing this time), The 8th time is when I was 20 and I asked to die after being heart broken by someone.
The 9th time was when I was 26, after my children went to live with their father and I asked to die. The 10th time was when I was living with a partner and it happened overnight, to such an effect that I didn’t know, who he was in the morning. It was the end of that relationship. The 11th time was a conscious dying process where I said consciously goodbye to everything in my reality over a three week period. The 12th time was when I suffered an entopic pregnancy and I knew before the operation, that I would try and follow the baby out of my body. I aspirated in theatre and they had to suck out my lungs. I was on oxygen and nebulisers for five days.
The most recent 13th time was in september (2010) when i went through the whole process consciously, as if a 'novice', both the purging of the internal, the past, the annihilation of my marriage, my future, my created creams, my contracts....everything...the internal /external became the nothing. i am just starting from scratch again. i was told that this was done this way so that i could assist others in the process.I wrote the whole thing down.
You get the picture. I am not the spirit that was born to my earth parents, I am not even the spirit that gave birth to any of my 4 children. I am not the spirit that was a child and I am not the spirit that married my husband. I am renewed each time to make or continue choices I have made before. Each time however, I had either asked for it to happen, or knew it was necessary to happen in some way.
so why does it happen?.it could be a negotiated swap...a soul/spirit comes down and wants out,so a swap is negotiated and made. this i have done a few times (the younger walk outs) this is the possible way Carlos slipped out and a spirit chose to die for him.(this may explain confusion/illness/normal death/personality changes before he went...i dont know the stories..and i don't really care...Carlos is still about for those connected to him anyway...as is any other 'consciousness')
i have also been told that this will happen to me when my vessel dies, that before the event on the physical, a willing and loving spirit will inhabit my body to do that bit for 'me'... so i can.."slip out whole..consciousness intact" lol.
i used to leave a note in my diary as a teen in case i 'spontaneously combusted' it was a real possibility to me. i was so concerned that my family would find only my shoes and search for me for years...that i wrote a note explaining what i had done in there, as i knew they would probably search and read it after my 'disappearance'.
I have been told that now,for me, it is part of the bigger picture contract, that humanity in its evolution requires new energies to be anchored in the physical and some vessels are used for this purpose. A lot of my work is on the Galactic level. and every time it needs to happen, the lower end of the spectrum is dropped (emotional and physical attachments) the spirit incoming, has to search the vessel in cellular memory, to know 'how' the vassel is supposed or is associated with things and people in the external...and then chooses again (often new) associations, that will assist with it's particular purpose here on earth. for example...relationships get dropped if they no longer serve the highest good.
i trust this makes sense. as i have said before i am learning to express my 'being' from the nothing, on this physical level...so questions assist me to do that...if you have any...feel free.....it assists me in being the best i can be...xxx
Shamanka
xx