07-03-2009, 12:00 AM
Watching the matrix for the first time tonight reminded me of this. It's hard to write it though as it involves a time of very personal drama for me. I was
in the middle of this drama when I was sitting in an art history class back in the 90's , the prof who was lecturing was a key element in the drama and he
clicked to the slide of the Venus of Willendorf statue and started talking about the men passing it on to their sons as a fertility item ets and suddenly
something jumped from that image into me and I stood up and told him "that's a she! , you keep saying he he he, that's a she!" Then I
left--there was alot more personal stuff and also after she jumped into me I experienced what I called Nirvana at the time (i think it was a small kensho more
accurate) for about 2 weeks. Shortly before the venus experience occured I was baking a cake and got 2 double yolked eggs which I felt was a sign. My mind was
way more quiet than it usually was during that experience and when thoughts did occur they were of different character than my normal thoughts were then --the
one I remember and why the matrix reminded me of this was the phrase "thought is the matrix" tha passed through my mind. I had no idea what that
meant then. I didn't smoke for those two weeks , didn't miss it or crave at all. This experience pointed me to new possibilities, made me more aware of
other realities. After the two weeks I remember trying to account for it rationally but not wanting a rational explanation to fit. Since then I've
expereinceed enough of the strange to know rational explanations for it are weak as are personal explanations.
ms, is this near what you had in mind?
in the middle of this drama when I was sitting in an art history class back in the 90's , the prof who was lecturing was a key element in the drama and he
clicked to the slide of the Venus of Willendorf statue and started talking about the men passing it on to their sons as a fertility item ets and suddenly
something jumped from that image into me and I stood up and told him "that's a she! , you keep saying he he he, that's a she!" Then I
left--there was alot more personal stuff and also after she jumped into me I experienced what I called Nirvana at the time (i think it was a small kensho more
accurate) for about 2 weeks. Shortly before the venus experience occured I was baking a cake and got 2 double yolked eggs which I felt was a sign. My mind was
way more quiet than it usually was during that experience and when thoughts did occur they were of different character than my normal thoughts were then --the
one I remember and why the matrix reminded me of this was the phrase "thought is the matrix" tha passed through my mind. I had no idea what that
meant then. I didn't smoke for those two weeks , didn't miss it or crave at all. This experience pointed me to new possibilities, made me more aware of
other realities. After the two weeks I remember trying to account for it rationally but not wanting a rational explanation to fit. Since then I've
expereinceed enough of the strange to know rational explanations for it are weak as are personal explanations.
ms, is this near what you had in mind?