02-15-2018, 12:00 AM
Amazing...I just watched that episode with my oldest daughter few days ago and knew it was relevant without knowing why.So, with respect to the recapitulation....looking back into those moments in which, say, acute fear is the response. Getting my ass kicked in front of a huge crowd of school mates in middle school, for instance. The intent is not to force fearlessness into that remembered and scanned moment....but to accept it wholesale while watching the scene play out? Is it just to watch.....accept....and, in the acceptance, to go into the scene as deeply as I can....as often as I can to go as deeply as I can?
What about DJ talking about the intent to recover energy lost in those scenes....and to eject energy lodged in my sphere from those outside in those scenes? I'm not sure how that plays into the paradigm. Maybe its all part of the "ironing" out of what's distorted by lack of acceptance...by resistance to what happened.
I'm actively looking for ways to deepen my recapitulation. I get taken to all kinds of various, seemingly disconnected scenes when I sit in silence....but the speed within which they shift from scene to scene...seemingly before I'm done with each.....seems like a product of my ADD
