08-31-2018, 12:00 AM
Kaomea wrote:
All that aside, how would you feel if your state of stillness, of not doing, was all there was in your future? What if the anticipated knock at your door never comes? Knowing there's a yellow brick road, but that you lack the red glitter heels to take you there? For how long would you search for the heels, how long would you sail the ocean blue in hopes of discovering treasures from a far and distant land?
Good question. I don't know. I guess if 4 hours or so went by and I never felt an authentic desire to do something I'd probably turn on some music while I continued to wait. Something not too distracting though, so I can keep listening for the knock. Assuming I had nothing else that needed doing or anyone pestering me at all, after a few days I'd probably find some other stuff to do, stuff from mind, again nothing too distracting, while I continued to wait and listen. And if 10 days or so went by and I still hadn't gotten a knock I'd get mad and wonder what I was doing wrong and why the universe wasn't helping to steer me better. Then I'd probably give up and go do other stuff until I'd emotionally recovered from my failure and felt as if I'd leveled up enough to maybe succeed the next time.
And if just the state of stillness was all there was in the future... eventually I suspect I'd end up constantly imagining a universe to occupy my attention.
What if the point of living isn't to climb a materialistic ladder, to accrue ridiculous amounts of tonal wealth, or become a hoarder of power.
Haha , let's not be ridiculous now.
Those things can be nice, sure. Instead, how nice would it be to be free of such limiting desires. To live simply and to love thyself.
Happiness isn't an external circumstance.
There's a certain amount of responsibility that goes along with that too. Letting others define your happiness is just plain poor emotional management strategy. Of course, happiness is just one of the emotions we can enjoy.
So I often ponder over how do we know we made it? When we stop letting a desire consume us we are free.
I remember Don Juan telling Carlos once about being free from the moods of various parts of the body, "Like when you feel sick because you eat too much". I guess knowing we've made it all depends on where we had decided to go. Personally I think the ultimate point of "making it" would be to have the ability to instantly have any experience, at any point in time. Like right now I could go experience being a soldier fighting for Napoleon and suddenly realizing that the battle is lost. And then I could be a pelican, diving deep to catch a fish. Then perhaps a tree, gossiping with the other trees about those silly monkeys. All the while maintaining the ability to shift out and go do something else. It'd be hard to say I hadn't made it yet if I could do that.
Your eyes will heal. But if they don't, you would adapt. Would you miss vision? Probably. Once you see things, you can't unsee them. Vision is powerful in that way.
I spent some time thinking about what I'd do if I went blind. I hoped that I'd get some sort of government assistance, setting me up in an apartment connected to skyways so I could get around easier. I figured I'd have a couple of close local hangouts. I wouldn't need to go many places because they would all look the same anyway.
I might get a seeing eye dog. But then I'd need someone to clean up after it. For work, I might get involved with producing audio stories, which is something I'd like to do anyway. I might miss vision on occasion, when I would struggle to do things I take for granted now, but I wouldn't feel like my life was ruined or anything like that.
All that aside, how would you feel if your state of stillness, of not doing, was all there was in your future? What if the anticipated knock at your door never comes? Knowing there's a yellow brick road, but that you lack the red glitter heels to take you there? For how long would you search for the heels, how long would you sail the ocean blue in hopes of discovering treasures from a far and distant land?
Good question. I don't know. I guess if 4 hours or so went by and I never felt an authentic desire to do something I'd probably turn on some music while I continued to wait. Something not too distracting though, so I can keep listening for the knock. Assuming I had nothing else that needed doing or anyone pestering me at all, after a few days I'd probably find some other stuff to do, stuff from mind, again nothing too distracting, while I continued to wait and listen. And if 10 days or so went by and I still hadn't gotten a knock I'd get mad and wonder what I was doing wrong and why the universe wasn't helping to steer me better. Then I'd probably give up and go do other stuff until I'd emotionally recovered from my failure and felt as if I'd leveled up enough to maybe succeed the next time.
And if just the state of stillness was all there was in the future... eventually I suspect I'd end up constantly imagining a universe to occupy my attention.
What if the point of living isn't to climb a materialistic ladder, to accrue ridiculous amounts of tonal wealth, or become a hoarder of power.
Haha , let's not be ridiculous now.
Those things can be nice, sure. Instead, how nice would it be to be free of such limiting desires. To live simply and to love thyself.
Happiness isn't an external circumstance.
There's a certain amount of responsibility that goes along with that too. Letting others define your happiness is just plain poor emotional management strategy. Of course, happiness is just one of the emotions we can enjoy.
So I often ponder over how do we know we made it? When we stop letting a desire consume us we are free.
I remember Don Juan telling Carlos once about being free from the moods of various parts of the body, "Like when you feel sick because you eat too much". I guess knowing we've made it all depends on where we had decided to go. Personally I think the ultimate point of "making it" would be to have the ability to instantly have any experience, at any point in time. Like right now I could go experience being a soldier fighting for Napoleon and suddenly realizing that the battle is lost. And then I could be a pelican, diving deep to catch a fish. Then perhaps a tree, gossiping with the other trees about those silly monkeys. All the while maintaining the ability to shift out and go do something else. It'd be hard to say I hadn't made it yet if I could do that.
Your eyes will heal. But if they don't, you would adapt. Would you miss vision? Probably. Once you see things, you can't unsee them. Vision is powerful in that way.
I spent some time thinking about what I'd do if I went blind. I hoped that I'd get some sort of government assistance, setting me up in an apartment connected to skyways so I could get around easier. I figured I'd have a couple of close local hangouts. I wouldn't need to go many places because they would all look the same anyway.
I might get a seeing eye dog. But then I'd need someone to clean up after it. For work, I might get involved with producing audio stories, which is something I'd like to do anyway. I might miss vision on occasion, when I would struggle to do things I take for granted now, but I wouldn't feel like my life was ruined or anything like that.