05-18-2011, 12:00 AM
My FI, I have been aware of it at times throughout my life. When I try to slip away from it, what it does is it uses fear. I just read in RF where you posted a bit about that...
Their trick is that they make you believe in what they tell you.
The best way to become aware of them is by shutting off your internal dialogue. Since you can hear your thoughts without associating with them, you will hear thoughts that arent yours. These thoughts can be disturbing, and at times scary. This is another one of their weapons: fear. It is usually irrational fear, so the trick is to not associate at all with it. The best way to combat this fear is to remember your death. The fears become meaningless in light of your death.
That is so true for me. In fact I asked you in Oracle about it a while back too. And I understand about the eyes, for the most part. Intent shows through the eyes so you can see the intent of the FI this way.
One thing I do with the FI is I get into a tug of war with it in which I start to say...why is it sending so much fear its too much. Then lately, since about Nov I contacted you in PM and you gave me the advice to voice the intent "no permission, get out" to the FI. So when it really assaults me I repeat that over and over. I'd rather hear my thoughts then its scary ones of gloom and doom. What I feel my FI does is it accesses my deepest traumas from childhood, feelings of death and loss I experienced and then it combines it with its thoughts to make the two seem like they go together. My experience with the FI is it can really turn up the heat.
Of course if you obey it and follow it its happy with that, but once you make effort to rid it, then it becomes different, hostile and starts looking for your weaknesses and to expose them and make you feel helpless.
So the best remedies are shutting off dialog, or voicing a mantra over and over, and also I use visual. I have an artwork of Kuan Yin of Courage she hold 4 powerful objects to ward off fear and rides a white lion . I use that one, and others. Visuals help becasue the FI likes to use visuals too so my own visuals combat its.
Some people may say, oh its not an FI its just you, you are doing this to yourself. I strongly disagree. I want peace, freedom, inner calm, I would never send myself violent images, thoughts fears and self hatred. I fight to regain what is my right to have, which is my own aims which seek beauty and acceptance of self and others, not all those judgements out there in the world. Judgements are the domain of the FI too.
People are judged by their looks and abilities, social classes and personalities and all those things. Thats the FI's doing, trying to create separatism and disharmony. It gets so complex becasue everyone's FI operates differently so it comes out in various forms and this all comprises human interaction. Everyone is looking for remedy from the strains they feel inwards, but often they go about it the wrong way, which is to lash out at everyone else, which creates only more strain. This is what happens when people don't see the FI parasite in them. And then if they do see it, they may feel shame and so try again to not see it and forget, pass blame etc. I feel that if they understand its foreign, and it makes us do stuff against our will until we spot it and stop it with our own intent, it will continue to do it and then shame us afterwards. But if we see what its doing, we can bypass the shame and fear and simply fight IT.
For me, and my experiences, I SAW it, and I saw it in another person and I felt it. Its truly inorganic so can travel person to person, but it seeks a home, so a host to stay in. This is saw and know clear as day and its energy feels very foreign and dark with a heaviness hard to describe but like an anchor...no lightness whatsoever, just a gravitational pull of moroseness and need to dominate/control us. This knowing about it helps me, to not forget.
One last thing, about using death to combat the fear. I have gotten to that point myself. Where I am so bombarded by it that I state to it that I don't care what it tries on me, I will fight it to my death if necessary, for death and going down fighting is a far better fate then its slavery it tries to impose on me which it will never never have, never.
Their trick is that they make you believe in what they tell you.
The best way to become aware of them is by shutting off your internal dialogue. Since you can hear your thoughts without associating with them, you will hear thoughts that arent yours. These thoughts can be disturbing, and at times scary. This is another one of their weapons: fear. It is usually irrational fear, so the trick is to not associate at all with it. The best way to combat this fear is to remember your death. The fears become meaningless in light of your death.
That is so true for me. In fact I asked you in Oracle about it a while back too. And I understand about the eyes, for the most part. Intent shows through the eyes so you can see the intent of the FI this way.
One thing I do with the FI is I get into a tug of war with it in which I start to say...why is it sending so much fear its too much. Then lately, since about Nov I contacted you in PM and you gave me the advice to voice the intent "no permission, get out" to the FI. So when it really assaults me I repeat that over and over. I'd rather hear my thoughts then its scary ones of gloom and doom. What I feel my FI does is it accesses my deepest traumas from childhood, feelings of death and loss I experienced and then it combines it with its thoughts to make the two seem like they go together. My experience with the FI is it can really turn up the heat.
Of course if you obey it and follow it its happy with that, but once you make effort to rid it, then it becomes different, hostile and starts looking for your weaknesses and to expose them and make you feel helpless.
So the best remedies are shutting off dialog, or voicing a mantra over and over, and also I use visual. I have an artwork of Kuan Yin of Courage she hold 4 powerful objects to ward off fear and rides a white lion . I use that one, and others. Visuals help becasue the FI likes to use visuals too so my own visuals combat its.
Some people may say, oh its not an FI its just you, you are doing this to yourself. I strongly disagree. I want peace, freedom, inner calm, I would never send myself violent images, thoughts fears and self hatred. I fight to regain what is my right to have, which is my own aims which seek beauty and acceptance of self and others, not all those judgements out there in the world. Judgements are the domain of the FI too.
People are judged by their looks and abilities, social classes and personalities and all those things. Thats the FI's doing, trying to create separatism and disharmony. It gets so complex becasue everyone's FI operates differently so it comes out in various forms and this all comprises human interaction. Everyone is looking for remedy from the strains they feel inwards, but often they go about it the wrong way, which is to lash out at everyone else, which creates only more strain. This is what happens when people don't see the FI parasite in them. And then if they do see it, they may feel shame and so try again to not see it and forget, pass blame etc. I feel that if they understand its foreign, and it makes us do stuff against our will until we spot it and stop it with our own intent, it will continue to do it and then shame us afterwards. But if we see what its doing, we can bypass the shame and fear and simply fight IT.
For me, and my experiences, I SAW it, and I saw it in another person and I felt it. Its truly inorganic so can travel person to person, but it seeks a home, so a host to stay in. This is saw and know clear as day and its energy feels very foreign and dark with a heaviness hard to describe but like an anchor...no lightness whatsoever, just a gravitational pull of moroseness and need to dominate/control us. This knowing about it helps me, to not forget.
One last thing, about using death to combat the fear. I have gotten to that point myself. Where I am so bombarded by it that I state to it that I don't care what it tries on me, I will fight it to my death if necessary, for death and going down fighting is a far better fate then its slavery it tries to impose on me which it will never never have, never.