02-18-2012, 12:00 AM
I have talked about this reaction in RF..... http://sorcery.yuku.com/topic/3601/The- ... ion?page=1
I have tried to explain the FI to my brother. Several times.....the last time was about 4 months ago and it was by texting only. I was in Las Vegas and he was back on the east coast. I am not really sure how the subject came up....but I was able to enable my brother to understand the FI for the first time. In the past, (this has been something I have been experimenting with for a long time) I have been able to discuss most of CC abstracts lessons with my brother...except the FI. When I was younger, I would often get my words all jumbled up when trying to explain the FI....I always knew it was the FI, both in me and him, that was making it difficult to explain the existence of the FI. It is the FI's survival mechanism...as a parasite....to confuse our thoughts...in order to continue to feed off of us. The conversation would always end with hightened awareness...but he never seemed to fully gasp the existense of the FI. I could see the exact moment when the FI took over and what I was telling him became a point of contension and he became argumentative. Now he is often argumentative....being a triple Leo....and has a hard time with ego.
So, over the last 15 years, I have discussed this with my brother, without success. I would often blame myself.....but that was my FI's last ditch attmept to control me. My extreme empathy for others....A place of no pity is fine in regards to myself but not in regards to others. I do feel the FI was playing on my desire to "help" everyone be aware of the existence of the FI. Ok, so the last time I was taking to my brother (Scott..who is only a year older then me), I was texting him my thoughts as to the FI. For the first time he seemed to truly understand (from what he was writing). It was as if the fact that I was not in his close proximity, allowed me to communicate past his FI. However, when he understood.....his reaction was very Zen. He stated that if that was the case then he needs to accpet the existnece of the FI but he should just live in homeostasis since it was the way things are meant to be. I tried to explain how we can be free of the FI and that we can keep our awarness after our physical body dies but then it became lost.
I have recenlty reconnected with an old friend. Someone I use to travel across the country with to see concerts, when I was young. I have been disucssing the teachings of don Juan with him. Both he and my brother have read the first book only. However, my friend (Steve) is very receptive to what I tell him. He is very intelligent, open minded, and a musical genious. I will discuss the FI with him and note his reaction. I have another really close friend who is an artist...pretty well known in Philadelphia. I have spoken to him as well, but he has a major ego (almost a messianic). His name is Dennis and I will also see what happens when I speak to him of the FI.
I have tried to explain the FI to my brother. Several times.....the last time was about 4 months ago and it was by texting only. I was in Las Vegas and he was back on the east coast. I am not really sure how the subject came up....but I was able to enable my brother to understand the FI for the first time. In the past, (this has been something I have been experimenting with for a long time) I have been able to discuss most of CC abstracts lessons with my brother...except the FI. When I was younger, I would often get my words all jumbled up when trying to explain the FI....I always knew it was the FI, both in me and him, that was making it difficult to explain the existence of the FI. It is the FI's survival mechanism...as a parasite....to confuse our thoughts...in order to continue to feed off of us. The conversation would always end with hightened awareness...but he never seemed to fully gasp the existense of the FI. I could see the exact moment when the FI took over and what I was telling him became a point of contension and he became argumentative. Now he is often argumentative....being a triple Leo....and has a hard time with ego.
So, over the last 15 years, I have discussed this with my brother, without success. I would often blame myself.....but that was my FI's last ditch attmept to control me. My extreme empathy for others....A place of no pity is fine in regards to myself but not in regards to others. I do feel the FI was playing on my desire to "help" everyone be aware of the existence of the FI. Ok, so the last time I was taking to my brother (Scott..who is only a year older then me), I was texting him my thoughts as to the FI. For the first time he seemed to truly understand (from what he was writing). It was as if the fact that I was not in his close proximity, allowed me to communicate past his FI. However, when he understood.....his reaction was very Zen. He stated that if that was the case then he needs to accpet the existnece of the FI but he should just live in homeostasis since it was the way things are meant to be. I tried to explain how we can be free of the FI and that we can keep our awarness after our physical body dies but then it became lost.
I have recenlty reconnected with an old friend. Someone I use to travel across the country with to see concerts, when I was young. I have been disucssing the teachings of don Juan with him. Both he and my brother have read the first book only. However, my friend (Steve) is very receptive to what I tell him. He is very intelligent, open minded, and a musical genious. I will discuss the FI with him and note his reaction. I have another really close friend who is an artist...pretty well known in Philadelphia. I have spoken to him as well, but he has a major ego (almost a messianic). His name is Dennis and I will also see what happens when I speak to him of the FI.