03-05-2012, 12:00 AM
Thanks for the reply.
Whats been happening to me are shifts, pretty significant, and the hells experienced are not like one would expect, they are much more subtle. They give the impression this is what the world is like, but its not a very good world, like it feels preditorial in a way. But not in the ordinary way, such as human emotions like anger or depression. Its more just like a harsh energy, yet life is just happening and nothings changed but an inner feeling of dread in a way. Its impossible to explain it in words I know. But I notice the movement there and then back to 'normal' awareness. Normal awareness is easier to deal with, even though its a flyer driven state, the sense of identity is stablizing. I am me you are you, comfortable thoughts to ground one. The other state is not like that, identity is alone there, there is no me and you separate, yet instead of blissful oneness, I feel its preditorial, in a very odd way. And I would like to think inner silence is not like this place, latter place. But since there is so much uncertainty, I cannot say which is the case. I cannot quite "understand" the nature of those shifts. Are those shifts more of the flyer or something else? But, I know you did talk about the hells and I agree with that, its the loss of identity I wonder about. And sorry if this does not make very much sense, it is very hard to describe the experiences in words.
Whats been happening to me are shifts, pretty significant, and the hells experienced are not like one would expect, they are much more subtle. They give the impression this is what the world is like, but its not a very good world, like it feels preditorial in a way. But not in the ordinary way, such as human emotions like anger or depression. Its more just like a harsh energy, yet life is just happening and nothings changed but an inner feeling of dread in a way. Its impossible to explain it in words I know. But I notice the movement there and then back to 'normal' awareness. Normal awareness is easier to deal with, even though its a flyer driven state, the sense of identity is stablizing. I am me you are you, comfortable thoughts to ground one. The other state is not like that, identity is alone there, there is no me and you separate, yet instead of blissful oneness, I feel its preditorial, in a very odd way. And I would like to think inner silence is not like this place, latter place. But since there is so much uncertainty, I cannot say which is the case. I cannot quite "understand" the nature of those shifts. Are those shifts more of the flyer or something else? But, I know you did talk about the hells and I agree with that, its the loss of identity I wonder about. And sorry if this does not make very much sense, it is very hard to describe the experiences in words.