03-11-2012, 12:00 AM
Our DD AP is strong, already. I would never have a negative feeling towards Senear, or any other memeber of RF. I am the type who sees past negativity and I always reach out to others and extend friendship. I have always been a loaner too....and I feel there may be a lot going on in RF for me. It could be that I am trying to catch up from being away...but everytime I read a thread, I am prepared to add my input as to one topic or another but by the time I finish reading, I am exhusted from all the back and forth. Don't get me wrong, I am happy everyone is connecting and there is cohesion there. I was just in a weird mood...probably coming down off of the high of being in Hawaii.
Senear is right, I do not care what people think of me and I have no agenda, but I think that statement brings to light the true source of my detachment I am feeling. It is ironic that this is the case becuase I do not care what others think of me. As in society in general, and in particular this lineage of sorcery......I do not feel total accpetance. This is self inflicted due to the fact that I do not fit in with 90% of the world.....sorcerer or non sorcerer. I have aways been an outcast, my weight, my religious beliefs, and my sexuality. So yes...I am gay. And I am not sure how this would affect me here but I feel as if I cannot be my true self sometimes. It is not a choice to be gay. I have tried to live a straight life and I even have a daughter. I am the being that I am. But in all seriousness..this is a topic not touched upon in CC's writings and it is the only place that I am not "out".
So..I come out to you and want you all to know my true being and energy.
Senear is right, I do not care what people think of me and I have no agenda, but I think that statement brings to light the true source of my detachment I am feeling. It is ironic that this is the case becuase I do not care what others think of me. As in society in general, and in particular this lineage of sorcery......I do not feel total accpetance. This is self inflicted due to the fact that I do not fit in with 90% of the world.....sorcerer or non sorcerer. I have aways been an outcast, my weight, my religious beliefs, and my sexuality. So yes...I am gay. And I am not sure how this would affect me here but I feel as if I cannot be my true self sometimes. It is not a choice to be gay. I have tried to live a straight life and I even have a daughter. I am the being that I am. But in all seriousness..this is a topic not touched upon in CC's writings and it is the only place that I am not "out".
So..I come out to you and want you all to know my true being and energy.