07-24-2011, 12:00 AM
I read the opening post. It was about what it feels like when the AP shift.
The first time it happened to me i felt like i had just been kneed in the back. It was a forcible shock that caused me to throw my shoulder back and arch my chest out. Physically it still gets me like this. It seems a bodily experience when it happens but if i try to locate the exact position in the body of where this is coming from it is a bit perplexing. It does seem to originate from just outside the physical body limits. Imagine seeing someone have very cold water thrown over their skin, or being slapped on their naked back. The physical reaction can sometimes resemble this.
From an internal psychological perspective in social situations it often feel like a huge building anxiety, an internal pressure. Sometimes right before it moves i start thinking that i might be dying. Then it moves. The sensations after are linked to where it has moved to.
Intentionally moving it is pretty hard core from a psychological perspective. I have done this a few times and is like going from mr nice to psychopath/sociopath through an act of pure will. Its actually incredibly easy to do. The only difficulty is overcoming the near daunting fixation of acting outside of who we believe ourselves to be. Like i said its pretty hardcore, frightening really. There are no limits as to what i might do, either to others or myself. The idea of this is one thing, living it it someting else entirely.
With various deep AP shifts i have felt an external bodily pressure all over me, like being crushed, then peculiarly i have felt something like soap (god knows why i say this) covering my skin and i slip through into wherever. The soap experience is really really wierd, and unpleasant. I can almost taste the stuff ooze out of me. Just wierd! This phenomena has happened when leaving this energetic phylum. I dont currently have too many of these last shifts to draw many conclusions from.
The first time it happened to me i felt like i had just been kneed in the back. It was a forcible shock that caused me to throw my shoulder back and arch my chest out. Physically it still gets me like this. It seems a bodily experience when it happens but if i try to locate the exact position in the body of where this is coming from it is a bit perplexing. It does seem to originate from just outside the physical body limits. Imagine seeing someone have very cold water thrown over their skin, or being slapped on their naked back. The physical reaction can sometimes resemble this.
From an internal psychological perspective in social situations it often feel like a huge building anxiety, an internal pressure. Sometimes right before it moves i start thinking that i might be dying. Then it moves. The sensations after are linked to where it has moved to.
Intentionally moving it is pretty hard core from a psychological perspective. I have done this a few times and is like going from mr nice to psychopath/sociopath through an act of pure will. Its actually incredibly easy to do. The only difficulty is overcoming the near daunting fixation of acting outside of who we believe ourselves to be. Like i said its pretty hardcore, frightening really. There are no limits as to what i might do, either to others or myself. The idea of this is one thing, living it it someting else entirely.
With various deep AP shifts i have felt an external bodily pressure all over me, like being crushed, then peculiarly i have felt something like soap (god knows why i say this) covering my skin and i slip through into wherever. The soap experience is really really wierd, and unpleasant. I can almost taste the stuff ooze out of me. Just wierd! This phenomena has happened when leaving this energetic phylum. I dont currently have too many of these last shifts to draw many conclusions from.