01-18-2017, 12:00 AM
Just some notes from personal exploration.
Deepening silence shifts my AP, without question. I don't intend it....it just happens. Although, while it's happening, I can feel myself doing it and it seems to happen via the context of the eyes....a perceptual shift that's both felt in the body and is visual as well. But the "feeling of me doing it" seems to happen all by itself, if that makes any sense at all lol.
And, as mentioned above, that shifted perspective naturally disassembles self importance. It just doesn't make sense in the face of it. It just drops.
All there is room for is a growing awe, that is the dropped jaw of awareness reaching out through space that's opening up. Alignment. Maybe it looks like a Chinese box from the outside looking in, but the mechanism is ultimately simple from my experience. Elusive because of the compulsion to continually muck around on the surface of things, looking for solutions in that endless, center-less maze, but simple once finally arrived upon.
To me, that's what Dok means about the folly of examining self importance, in a way. An analogy, for what its worth, is something like inward musing about what happened and what's going on when stuck in an underwater eddy. There's the folly of thinking about it vs the practicalities of doing what it takes to simply disengage from the eddy.
The eddy, for me, is compulsive thinking. Compulsive thinking is where self importance sustains itself...and helps to keep the AP fixated on its habitual position. Silence is the not-doing of compulsive thinking and, thus, the not doing of the "world" perceived associated with the habitual position of the AP.
Sustained silence naturally shifts the AP, dismantles self importance, stops the world, cultivates silent knowledge which naturally leads to impeccability when engaging the world at large. "Silent volition", I guess might be an applicable term.
Impeccability stems from inner silence...it just does! Well, I guess they are interdependent. Impeccability flows from inner silence and inner silence is the result of impeccability. When engaging the world at large with the intent to uphold inner silence, I'm finding that "what needs to be done/what needs to be said" in order to neutralize the world and all its challenges just emerge from upholding that state. And then doing/saying what's needed helps to perpetuate that inner state. It's all, slowly but surely, deepening from that interdependence.
Simplicity. But, then again I confess, this is all Sorcery 101. A class which I've failed or dropped out of many, many times (I can't tell you how many dreams I've had being remediated back to HS....back to middle school....hell, one not too long ago, back to elementary school! Crayons and all ) Once Sorcery 101 is passed, I'm sure the challenges become more complex....but I bet the central intent, analogously, is the same more or less.
We'll see
Deepening silence shifts my AP, without question. I don't intend it....it just happens. Although, while it's happening, I can feel myself doing it and it seems to happen via the context of the eyes....a perceptual shift that's both felt in the body and is visual as well. But the "feeling of me doing it" seems to happen all by itself, if that makes any sense at all lol.
And, as mentioned above, that shifted perspective naturally disassembles self importance. It just doesn't make sense in the face of it. It just drops.
All there is room for is a growing awe, that is the dropped jaw of awareness reaching out through space that's opening up. Alignment. Maybe it looks like a Chinese box from the outside looking in, but the mechanism is ultimately simple from my experience. Elusive because of the compulsion to continually muck around on the surface of things, looking for solutions in that endless, center-less maze, but simple once finally arrived upon.
To me, that's what Dok means about the folly of examining self importance, in a way. An analogy, for what its worth, is something like inward musing about what happened and what's going on when stuck in an underwater eddy. There's the folly of thinking about it vs the practicalities of doing what it takes to simply disengage from the eddy.
The eddy, for me, is compulsive thinking. Compulsive thinking is where self importance sustains itself...and helps to keep the AP fixated on its habitual position. Silence is the not-doing of compulsive thinking and, thus, the not doing of the "world" perceived associated with the habitual position of the AP.
Sustained silence naturally shifts the AP, dismantles self importance, stops the world, cultivates silent knowledge which naturally leads to impeccability when engaging the world at large. "Silent volition", I guess might be an applicable term.
Impeccability stems from inner silence...it just does! Well, I guess they are interdependent. Impeccability flows from inner silence and inner silence is the result of impeccability. When engaging the world at large with the intent to uphold inner silence, I'm finding that "what needs to be done/what needs to be said" in order to neutralize the world and all its challenges just emerge from upholding that state. And then doing/saying what's needed helps to perpetuate that inner state. It's all, slowly but surely, deepening from that interdependence.
Simplicity. But, then again I confess, this is all Sorcery 101. A class which I've failed or dropped out of many, many times (I can't tell you how many dreams I've had being remediated back to HS....back to middle school....hell, one not too long ago, back to elementary school! Crayons and all ) Once Sorcery 101 is passed, I'm sure the challenges become more complex....but I bet the central intent, analogously, is the same more or less.
We'll see