12-08-2013, 12:00 AM
I dont think that we must necasserily die, have you heard about Recapitulation of PasteLife ? and Imaginations of "FuTubi" Light? I said oince to my friend Toby "*** off!" and it made me feel really strange several days after, is there some way to equalize and get this problem recaptured ?No, I think its not the problem...I dont know, I just feel that wherever I may fall off it will take me to the place whereas I should be with my life.
I have really found now value from all of,the invisibility of reactions as sometimes perceived without visibility without any color in our actions and its possible that we shine while we should less try and get univisibely gaining more ?
We had beard many voices heard past our times and the times why we can see in our hearts, the question that deepens us me in resolves in certain very thight"Black Pants" which caused me pains while I was trying to dance on the "Rave" parties, I often feel strange "Hide-like" feelings in my back, but I feel we everytime in our life feel sometime someone wallching us from behind... Like if there is some Man Behind the Curtain or I dont know, but sometimes it really feels just like a weaved curtain, the all shits people step into.
Oinsequencess of our actions on The Other people around when we feel shy and dont know what to say ?
if the subtleness of light is really enough ? we can see maybe more than selfish and arrogant actions of anOther seeing by uncorned graylike manner, because I think that when everything In my life was the Grayest after some time I was able to see more new opportunites which were invisible to my sight.....
I was fishing with my friends at the sea and I managed to catch an eel he even gave me some shocks but when I killed him he was really good on the fire and at that occasion friends asked me if I catched it by myself, because noone was able to believe that I catched the Eletric Eel by just my bare hands, but it was evident so everyone was quiet, I was in that moment thinking if my friends also ever heard an animal like that and if so if it was somehow special to them?
They smiled and my friend Froyd said that he was trying to shoot animals from the sky many time with shotgun slugs of Sc040 but when he tried the Green Ones of Sc808, suddenly he became the biggest "Bird Hunter" and that he catched one day a very special butterfly in a trap he made in his garden, but his mother did not wanted him to keep it that way, but the butterfly also escaped. Which Angried my friend alot but he got along and does not care of his mother anymore and I can speak with her freely...because I really love her cakes.
I was questioning myself several times, does the transactions have been approved by severance of myself off the question that bothers my every while about "what The Other" thinks of me, who knows... I can only know that I want to show myself off really gently so I can feel some of the "warmth" inside, and that way for me I learned my lesson that I dont have to just shine, but maybe I am grayskin like everyone around, it may sounds that I feel alien sometimes but havent you ever felt like "Forgein" ?
I am really desperate in me relationships but I still see that being impeccable acting transparent allows me to see the rainbow of everyday "usual" life and I am glad for that.
I had some strange feeling today visiting the grayveyard where was my uncle and when I lied the flower on his final resting place, I somehow heard his word saying
"Yes, I am elsewhere" I have been saying this for whole my life, but I never knew that it will be so sad and often happy between the people...the Great Eelsnow.
I feel like that in every droplet of snow droplet there is whole life story written for us to read.
I have really found now value from all of,the invisibility of reactions as sometimes perceived without visibility without any color in our actions and its possible that we shine while we should less try and get univisibely gaining more ?
We had beard many voices heard past our times and the times why we can see in our hearts, the question that deepens us me in resolves in certain very thight"Black Pants" which caused me pains while I was trying to dance on the "Rave" parties, I often feel strange "Hide-like" feelings in my back, but I feel we everytime in our life feel sometime someone wallching us from behind... Like if there is some Man Behind the Curtain or I dont know, but sometimes it really feels just like a weaved curtain, the all shits people step into.
Oinsequencess of our actions on The Other people around when we feel shy and dont know what to say ?
if the subtleness of light is really enough ? we can see maybe more than selfish and arrogant actions of anOther seeing by uncorned graylike manner, because I think that when everything In my life was the Grayest after some time I was able to see more new opportunites which were invisible to my sight.....
I was fishing with my friends at the sea and I managed to catch an eel he even gave me some shocks but when I killed him he was really good on the fire and at that occasion friends asked me if I catched it by myself, because noone was able to believe that I catched the Eletric Eel by just my bare hands, but it was evident so everyone was quiet, I was in that moment thinking if my friends also ever heard an animal like that and if so if it was somehow special to them?
They smiled and my friend Froyd said that he was trying to shoot animals from the sky many time with shotgun slugs of Sc040 but when he tried the Green Ones of Sc808, suddenly he became the biggest "Bird Hunter" and that he catched one day a very special butterfly in a trap he made in his garden, but his mother did not wanted him to keep it that way, but the butterfly also escaped. Which Angried my friend alot but he got along and does not care of his mother anymore and I can speak with her freely...because I really love her cakes.
I was questioning myself several times, does the transactions have been approved by severance of myself off the question that bothers my every while about "what The Other" thinks of me, who knows... I can only know that I want to show myself off really gently so I can feel some of the "warmth" inside, and that way for me I learned my lesson that I dont have to just shine, but maybe I am grayskin like everyone around, it may sounds that I feel alien sometimes but havent you ever felt like "Forgein" ?
I am really desperate in me relationships but I still see that being impeccable acting transparent allows me to see the rainbow of everyday "usual" life and I am glad for that.
I had some strange feeling today visiting the grayveyard where was my uncle and when I lied the flower on his final resting place, I somehow heard his word saying
"Yes, I am elsewhere" I have been saying this for whole my life, but I never knew that it will be so sad and often happy between the people...the Great Eelsnow.
I feel like that in every droplet of snow droplet there is whole life story written for us to read.