01-08-2013, 12:01 AM
Becoming. Becoming what? Something else, I guess...in terms of perception...something less bored...less boring...less dismissive of what I've been skimming over.
Gazing meditation helps me in this regard. Its a beginning. Eyes open, directly ahead...looking at, perceiving the presumably solid world around me with me, a presumably solid being, within it....and then intending the perceptual shift...to soften that world right before my very eyes...watch as certainty (Kansas) goes bye-bye and inflections of fluid energy begin to emerge. Its been a verrrrry long emergence, but emerging it is! Slowly but surely. The air itself, previous empty and unimportant...now becomes alive...utterly teaming with squirming, darting streaks of light and shadowy particles going every which-a-way. The light changes...shifts...darkens, in a way, but in another way becomes more luminous....objects begin to glow with some ethereal signature. The straight lines of, say, a wall...well...they're just not straight any more....become subject to fluid rippling/wave-like phenomenon that I can see moving through everything. All this with a premium feeling...blooming warmth/coolness throughout the body.
I can't hold onto it, though, when I get up from my sessions (yet! )...although the signature feeling in the body lingers for quite some time typically, making my day a much better place to be. I don't know anything else but to simply persist, in this regard....taking that softening intention on into the busy hustle/bustle of my very solid, seemingly important daily life.
Gazing meditation helps me in this regard. Its a beginning. Eyes open, directly ahead...looking at, perceiving the presumably solid world around me with me, a presumably solid being, within it....and then intending the perceptual shift...to soften that world right before my very eyes...watch as certainty (Kansas) goes bye-bye and inflections of fluid energy begin to emerge. Its been a verrrrry long emergence, but emerging it is! Slowly but surely. The air itself, previous empty and unimportant...now becomes alive...utterly teaming with squirming, darting streaks of light and shadowy particles going every which-a-way. The light changes...shifts...darkens, in a way, but in another way becomes more luminous....objects begin to glow with some ethereal signature. The straight lines of, say, a wall...well...they're just not straight any more....become subject to fluid rippling/wave-like phenomenon that I can see moving through everything. All this with a premium feeling...blooming warmth/coolness throughout the body.
I can't hold onto it, though, when I get up from my sessions (yet! )...although the signature feeling in the body lingers for quite some time typically, making my day a much better place to be. I don't know anything else but to simply persist, in this regard....taking that softening intention on into the busy hustle/bustle of my very solid, seemingly important daily life.