07-30-2011, 12:00 AM
seesaw, you should start to listen better. Your reason is not my reason. My last reply to you was made in disappointment, not agreement. I meant what I said. And I do not just mean the fact that I'd need a reason. I mean the fact that right now I am different than I was a month ago and I first need to figure out what changed, who I am right now. I have been working on a lot of stuff, as always, and am constantly changing, but this here is something stronger for me than the average and I do not need an alter to keep having fun, if it is just fun that one gets out if it. I have never been bored in my life, so no need for those kinds of activities.
You did not really make an answer to the thoughts I expressed in my last post (that was the disappointment). Either way right now I am different than I was just three weeks ago and what I am saying now I would not have said then.
I liked your post and thought along, the topic was something I thought about before but decided not to do. And I did say I'd be up for play in a controlled environment, though not just right this second (as I explained). I am sure it would be fun but I have no idea right now who I should be in this game. Without that I cannot play along. I can play the new me but that is what I am doing right now.. so not what you had in mind. But for me that is the same as playing anything new. I think you could count that/this, since I feel like I left myself somewhere round the corner . But if you think about what I am saying and put yourself in my shoes I think you could understand.. I am actually trying to go along and see where what boundaries are now, which is a full time job.
I might get back to you on your proposal, and like I said before I do value the fact that you made it in a sincere and serious spirit. I just have enough on my hands right now in that specific department. Plus I am currently a bit tired by this site, so not the best time to do this. Hope I made myself clear enough this time and sorry that my last reply was not clear, I just did not want to edit it and state the fact that I expected more in terms of a reply from you. Did not want to be rude hahaha.
But I will still think about it. If you have this controlled environment do let me know, I might know how I want to play by then. Also don't expect me to announce it, I think it will be better if you have no idea it is happening.. otherwise it is not that much fun. Thnx again for giving me that freedom .
You did not really make an answer to the thoughts I expressed in my last post (that was the disappointment). Either way right now I am different than I was just three weeks ago and what I am saying now I would not have said then.
I liked your post and thought along, the topic was something I thought about before but decided not to do. And I did say I'd be up for play in a controlled environment, though not just right this second (as I explained). I am sure it would be fun but I have no idea right now who I should be in this game. Without that I cannot play along. I can play the new me but that is what I am doing right now.. so not what you had in mind. But for me that is the same as playing anything new. I think you could count that/this, since I feel like I left myself somewhere round the corner . But if you think about what I am saying and put yourself in my shoes I think you could understand.. I am actually trying to go along and see where what boundaries are now, which is a full time job.
I might get back to you on your proposal, and like I said before I do value the fact that you made it in a sincere and serious spirit. I just have enough on my hands right now in that specific department. Plus I am currently a bit tired by this site, so not the best time to do this. Hope I made myself clear enough this time and sorry that my last reply was not clear, I just did not want to edit it and state the fact that I expected more in terms of a reply from you. Did not want to be rude hahaha.
But I will still think about it. If you have this controlled environment do let me know, I might know how I want to play by then. Also don't expect me to announce it, I think it will be better if you have no idea it is happening.. otherwise it is not that much fun. Thnx again for giving me that freedom .