05-16-2009, 12:01 AM
I'm really intimidated by all you toothy warriors but here goes once again and hope a fool doesn't fall on her knees foot in mouth anyway from someone
who recalls being way on the bottom of it because it wasn't so long ago it behooved me to pay attention to my internal dialogue at some point and still
does at times, at first( like 10 through 20 years ago) i had almost no idea what was going on in there--all the negativity--i recall hearing a tape of abuse
directed toward me--it was a lot like a looping tape, a you're so stupid channel, less than ayear ago it was often focused on my spiritual trip and how
enlightened I thought I was, these days when i notice myself blowing myself up big or small i stop it and change my flow of thought. It's only just lately
that i have felt that having it and giving it attention is becomming a hinderance and it even seems as I write this that the intent of the dialogue or flyer
has changed as if it knows I'm on to it and now it persist to keep me from reaching the quiet, well anyway, most of the time it is so full of **** it is
starting to bore me, i want to be in a quiet flow more often but it wont shut up and it robs me of my potential, I'm getting pissed as I write this. And
yeha with the music, playing it quiets the babble and becomes visual sometimes but that looping muzac especially when its a crappy song seems even more hard to
banish when I sit than the dialogue and my dicipline is terrible and I'm a scattered and rather multiple person so can anyone offer advise about how to
increase dicipline? and to focus or bringing all these sub-personalities under one roof? I'm not saying I have multiple personality disorder, it's not
that severe. Has anyone got any insight on those multiple aspect s ?
I am sceptical about flyers because I haven't seen a flyer that I know of but I know that the phenomena are real and operative and rob countless billions
of their full potential.
This is a great thread, and so many study links. Thanks everyone.
The point I was trying to make was that for early beginers paying attention to it, then learning (for me I learned through the pain of my mistakes) not to buy
into it ought to come before attempting to reach a quiet mind.
who recalls being way on the bottom of it because it wasn't so long ago it behooved me to pay attention to my internal dialogue at some point and still
does at times, at first( like 10 through 20 years ago) i had almost no idea what was going on in there--all the negativity--i recall hearing a tape of abuse
directed toward me--it was a lot like a looping tape, a you're so stupid channel, less than ayear ago it was often focused on my spiritual trip and how
enlightened I thought I was, these days when i notice myself blowing myself up big or small i stop it and change my flow of thought. It's only just lately
that i have felt that having it and giving it attention is becomming a hinderance and it even seems as I write this that the intent of the dialogue or flyer
has changed as if it knows I'm on to it and now it persist to keep me from reaching the quiet, well anyway, most of the time it is so full of **** it is
starting to bore me, i want to be in a quiet flow more often but it wont shut up and it robs me of my potential, I'm getting pissed as I write this. And
yeha with the music, playing it quiets the babble and becomes visual sometimes but that looping muzac especially when its a crappy song seems even more hard to
banish when I sit than the dialogue and my dicipline is terrible and I'm a scattered and rather multiple person so can anyone offer advise about how to
increase dicipline? and to focus or bringing all these sub-personalities under one roof? I'm not saying I have multiple personality disorder, it's not
that severe. Has anyone got any insight on those multiple aspect s ?
I am sceptical about flyers because I haven't seen a flyer that I know of but I know that the phenomena are real and operative and rob countless billions
of their full potential.
This is a great thread, and so many study links. Thanks everyone.
The point I was trying to make was that for early beginers paying attention to it, then learning (for me I learned through the pain of my mistakes) not to buy
into it ought to come before attempting to reach a quiet mind.