02-15-2004, 12:00 AM
I was not opened to her FI.
Prior to spending time with her, I approached the professor, and attempted to apologize, at least I admitted that I felt us to both be dihonest towards each other, but that I was much more dishonest than he had been. I did not live up to my promise to arrive at work on time every day. He did not want to feel the slightest in the wrong, so he agreed to disagree about this issue. I do know that he still takes my words personally, and he has always been very protective of himself. The energy had been released.
I guess I cannot feel him accountable for looking me in the eyes and not being straightforward with his feelings. Eye contact has always been a very important thing for me, but I also know that I have often not been able to live up to all of the promises I have made when giving eye contact.
There is a lesson here.
With the girl, rather I feel that our FI's conspired with one other. She cannot imagine any other way then to relinquish her energy to the flyer. Maybe I can at least help her as a friend.
Peace
Prior to spending time with her, I approached the professor, and attempted to apologize, at least I admitted that I felt us to both be dihonest towards each other, but that I was much more dishonest than he had been. I did not live up to my promise to arrive at work on time every day. He did not want to feel the slightest in the wrong, so he agreed to disagree about this issue. I do know that he still takes my words personally, and he has always been very protective of himself. The energy had been released.
I guess I cannot feel him accountable for looking me in the eyes and not being straightforward with his feelings. Eye contact has always been a very important thing for me, but I also know that I have often not been able to live up to all of the promises I have made when giving eye contact.
There is a lesson here.
With the girl, rather I feel that our FI's conspired with one other. She cannot imagine any other way then to relinquish her energy to the flyer. Maybe I can at least help her as a friend.
Peace