DO you believe there is a GOD and why?

[Hawkeye Crow]

I am fixing supper and cleaning up a few dishes. I think about why I have the attitude I have . I will be 59 years in a few months , and during those years I
have had Christians shaking their fingers at me , telling me things that aren't true , making threats if I don't ' bend my knee' to them. And
worse , I was an abused child. I prayed to your god for relief that never came. I am alive due only to the choices I made for myself , choices which
sometimes seemed to be wrong , but those were the choices I had to choose from. I accept my fate , I accept my responsibility for myself and no longer feel
self-hatred. Obviously , I am sick and tired of bullshit preachers , and have had to adjust my understanding of a creator. I'll call him Grandfather and
I'll call her Grandmother. It should be easy to see why I would identify with the Dakota , Tuscarora and other Nations. And , dammit , many of these
people , just like don Juan , knew how to LIVE - anywhere - and what life was for. How little the people of today know. I include myself. Hell ,
there's food growing on my land and I don't even know what it is. Got plenty of rabbit , though. Will I be able to afford the ammo?