08-20-2017, 12:00 AM
Also, yes, splits in psyche occur when people go for extended periods without support. What you mention about needing recognition and support are necessary. This is where it gets tricky with Carlos Castenada beliefs. So many of his followers believe they've re-capped and are above it all (warriors). Many will deny having issues because they don't want the public shaming that occurs because somehow being human is frowned upon since the goal is to be a nagual. Yet a nagual is something made up. Four-pronged individuals are the chosen ones? Really? Consider all the naguals we've met and consider whether they are something you want to be like (don't count me lol I'm not nagual).
It's why I can't hate Wolf. He was broken at a young age (as he says) and had no one to help him besides a particular form of shamanism. It kept him alive. He plays games with people to "test" them because that's what Carlos said stalkers do. Wolf is committed to a particular form of shamanism and that's his passion, that's what satisfied him. Though after reading his history he wrote, it's clear that his psyche was split and it remained split. It's not even his fault. He is a product of a society that is spiritually ignorant. WG consider why you were brought in. Wolf was wise and could see, he is spiritually aware. That awareness wasn't supported by a shaman and so he had to teach himself. When we dance close to the edge of awareness, our minds have the potential to slip into that abyss. If we know we're entering a fall, we save the things we care about. Sorcery was Wolf's life. He gave it to someone who would treat it well, in the spirit he intended. That was you, girl. You're special. Special because you genuinely care about others and are intellectually competent.
So I think about the people like Wolf and how the mental health system failed him. How humanity failed him. How there are so many like him out there. Society judges the mentally ill because they don't understand them. Yet here you are, hanging out with a group of borderline mentally ill individuals and trying to make sense out of it. It's easy to see our calling when we look at the patterns we've held. How we've invested our time and energy reveals where our heart resides. Consider your passion and your calling. You've been doing it for a long time now.
(You know, in case you were contemplating purpose and direction xD )
It's why I can't hate Wolf. He was broken at a young age (as he says) and had no one to help him besides a particular form of shamanism. It kept him alive. He plays games with people to "test" them because that's what Carlos said stalkers do. Wolf is committed to a particular form of shamanism and that's his passion, that's what satisfied him. Though after reading his history he wrote, it's clear that his psyche was split and it remained split. It's not even his fault. He is a product of a society that is spiritually ignorant. WG consider why you were brought in. Wolf was wise and could see, he is spiritually aware. That awareness wasn't supported by a shaman and so he had to teach himself. When we dance close to the edge of awareness, our minds have the potential to slip into that abyss. If we know we're entering a fall, we save the things we care about. Sorcery was Wolf's life. He gave it to someone who would treat it well, in the spirit he intended. That was you, girl. You're special. Special because you genuinely care about others and are intellectually competent.
So I think about the people like Wolf and how the mental health system failed him. How humanity failed him. How there are so many like him out there. Society judges the mentally ill because they don't understand them. Yet here you are, hanging out with a group of borderline mentally ill individuals and trying to make sense out of it. It's easy to see our calling when we look at the patterns we've held. How we've invested our time and energy reveals where our heart resides. Consider your passion and your calling. You've been doing it for a long time now.
(You know, in case you were contemplating purpose and direction xD )