I won't lve forever

[Hawkeye Crow]

Hello to all and LoneWolf
I hope you don't mind my using this gate.
I have been away for many reasons, mostly PC issues, which I am trying to upgrade.
Mainly , I live in a rural area of Western North Carolina , where Dial-Up is the only option, unless you are wealthy enough to afford satellite connections. and it is not so efficient.
I can't run video.
Also , I used to work 50-60 hours a week, which left me little time to deal with Online communication.
Now that I am retired, on Social Security, I must deal with leisure , which seems to suggest more responsibility around the homestead.
What is odd about that is , that, with less money to spend, being careful as to what I spend , I seem to have more to spend when the needs are there.
I don't have to commute , so less is spent on fuel.
Anyhow, I was going through some paperwork , and I came across an essay by SSilhouette from 8/24/07 , titled 'The Fliers Method' , about Co-Dependence and narcissism.
I went to A Place of No Pity to leave a message, without luck , due to my connection issues , or hers.  I also wondered if she was still alive.
By a post here , I see she is still among us. That is good. Her essay is excellent, and her website , as is yours, Lonewolf, is quite attractive.
I recall SSil from 10 or more years ago , from Lonewolf's old Castaneda Forum , where I began my research of the Castaneda books.
Of course , my learning was not limited to Castaneda, and that is good , as it seems that Carlos became lost as well as many others of us.
'Don't follow leaders, watch...'  if you get my drift.
Think for yourself seems to be a good idea,  for even those we love, or who claim to love us, can mislead us  to foolishness .
We mislead ourselves enough as it is.
I suppose that having regrets is foolish , but I have a few. I can only wish that I knew what I know now a little bit sooner. Seems like there's a song   about that I keep hearing these days.
I will be 66 years old in a few   months. I have some health problems , some my own fault , but mostly due to work in the exploitative industrial system. Makes me think of that story Carlos wrote,  about Don Juan teasing him by imitating the factory whistle ,  calling the sheep to clock in.
My name is Bob.
I have nothing more to hide , and , when I can find the time, I am open to discussion.
If you are sincere, feel free to e-mail ; if you want to play games , you will be ignored.
Also , I have a fairly good firewall, so don't try that ****!
Find me at :
joehawken4@yahoo.com
In the name of the Ogalla unknown Grandfather spirit of  Shaman Black Elk, I am,
Hawkeye Crow

[serloco]

hey there, i suggest a good regiment of "*** death up the ass" he likes it.. and a steady diet of "I will grow younger" followed by a dose of "my body heals anything and is immune to disease".. take these and call me in the morning, or if you fail i suggest which you should not, i recommend a firm belief and choice in the afterlife..

[Hawkeye Crow]

I have given that some thought.
From what I found in the Castaneda books , I have assumed that going into an 'afterlife' is achieved by Dreaming.
That is , when the body is done in this life, consciousness jumps into an alternative world of the Dream, and life goes on.
I don't know if that's the case , just a guess on my part.
The Nagual way may be the only indication of the existence of an afterlife.
All other 'theologies' are pointing to the idea that these things, such as the nature of 'God' , or even if there is God , is beyond human understanding .
The Iris Dement song , 'Let the Mystery Be' , is symbolic of this view.
Most certainly , those of today's religions , who claim to know the mind  of their god and the afterlife , and will kill those they consider heretics,  are really quite insane.

[Hawkeye Crow]

Before I say anything, I must give respect to Nagual Lonewolf , who created this site , and several others , that gave people like me an opportunity to explore the other side. Thanks , buddy.
Now , I am Hawkeye  Crow , and I am quite surprised to find a thread , existing for a year now , named after me.
 I have been away from this site for some time now, due to Tech issues.  I live in a not-quite wilderness area where DSL and smart phones have no links. So be it, that is my choice.
Then again , the corporatists , like AT&T , don't find enough $$$ to link me , and seek to end land -lines with no alternative.
Well , Don Juan didn't always have phone , either.
I suppose , if I was an adept Nagual, that wouldn't mater , eh?
Anyhow , this is just to check in with you , to let you know I haven't forgotten , I am still exploring Dreaming.
I learned a lot from the Castaneda books. Most especially fact that perception colors everything we do ; truth is in the eye of the beholder.
I am gratified that this knowledge has come into common usage ; that, imprisoned persons are being released due to DNA science that proves the falsehood of 'eyewitness' accusations made by bigoted persons.
What you see is what you get .
So , that is my short greeting to you all , here at the Nagual.
Maybe I won't be such a stranger in the times to come.
I am now retired from the American working world , at 66 years old , looking for my next place in life , mainly , a part-time job , without too much stress , to supplement Social Security!

[serloco]

Hawk eye.. Suggests eyes that see. Now see this.. Controlled folly is a choice. There are so many ideas about the afterlife, and indeed many ideas about existence. IN one position of awareness you will die and go to heaven. IN another you will be devoured by the eagle or go to freedom. Maybe in another there is nothing. What I am saying is infinity has every option available to you. Every and any outcome. What it boils don to is a choice, a decision. What do you intend to happen when you die? You intend to die but I dont. I intend to live and be immortal. TO do the miraculous, the impossible. I want the best. I settle for nothing less. You dont know what will happen.. You intend the unknown like many people do. I have seen so many faces of death because I am a fluid warrior. Death is in my grasp. It is my friend and my death doesnt want me to die. It teaches me how to live.

Yes, I do hope you come around the boards, would be nice to see some new people posting on the boards.

[Sorcery]

Just like everybody else
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GG
WW
You know where to go, my friend, forever.

Ran,

My gf, assume.

Lol,

Naguatlatl atlan tlaloclolan, anu,'

[Mornings Son]

Good to see you old friend. 
How is all your friends around you? 

I sad to inform you that its been a few years since he was here and made a few post to disappear again... 
Stalking be half the teaching of Don Juan I can't say if he is checking in here or not under another flag...

There might very well be herbs where you live that might be the medicin you need. 

Will write more later.
Best Wishes 
Mornings Son

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