My experience with Lujan Matus

[Pixie Dust]

I have a joke to lighten the mood: what did one actor say to another actor?

Nice to see you

[Pixie Dust]

Music intermission.



Too soon?

[NathansHere]

Pixie Dust wrote:
I think it's good to remember that everything is public, even when we believe it's private  there are many ways cyber security is manipulated.  The illusion of privacy is a good one!  No worries about Lujan and his spies.  If they're there they are discreet.

I really enjoy how you're giving Lujan so much credit.  You're painting him out to be a God!  It's quite a compliment all the power you've assigned to him via your exchange.  I often think of him like a God too.  He moves like a wild beast.  It's so primitive.  I lurves it.  

He's clearly not your speed.  He's not for everyone.  No one is for everyone.  It's so sad you're still pestered by him.  You must have really caught his eye.

Do tell: what about you made him pursue you to such extent?

I didn't mean to give him too much credit or paint him out to be a God. But one thing I'll tell you is this, he's got alot of potential that is being wasted. So much knowledge he could be using for the good but isn't. But that's why I'm here apparently, I was told to become better than him by the Double.

Regarding why he's still pursuing me to an extent; he's given me so many reasons that I don't know what to believe. On one occasion because they "love me" (him and his multiple personalities)

[Pixie Dust]

That's sweet. Good for you for attracting a God. Those aren't easy to come by. What an exciting life you're living!

[NathansHere]

Absyllyon wrote:
NathansHere wrote:"You win, now let me go" but he gives me satirical responses and tells me never to ask again. I tried emailing the other Lujan Matus that most are familiar with but he didn't help much. The Double has stated that he will leave me alone this July, but I'm skeptical and waiting to see. If so, I'll be the happiest man alive.
 
Have you retracted your intent and perhaps redirected your intent for apprenticeship to your own double?

Yes. Many times. I regret the day I e-mailed him. Even if he has taught me alot through being in my life, all that I had to go through was not necessary. But I also see his presence in my life as a sort of punishment for things I did in the past. It makes me feel like now I can go on with my life, guilt-free, now that I've been "punished" in a way. In a very extreme way which leaves no doubt in my mind that I've received more than what I "deserve". I really hope things do end in July, I'll keep you posted!
 
From what you write it seems to me that your intent still remains the same. I would take his double up on its statement not to ever ask again. Refocusing your intent isn't a request but a command.

The regret you hold is making your energy leak like a sieve and weakening your position to will or command anything. Stand as a warrior, seal yourself and stand firm in your decisions. No regrets, only making a new way forward. What I am saying is that only by taking everything that has happened to you and the things you have done and owning it can you regain your power. Demand from yourself that you occupy that space and feel yourself as immovable in your ownership of it. I wouldn't wait until July. You make your own karma, so take action now. Take your feeling of been traumatized into your chest whilst repeating to yourself that what hurts you only makes you stronger. Try to 'feel' the truth of this until optimism and a sense of resilience shine through.

I think that LM take on karma is erroneous, and at the worst new age spin to keep one passive. Karma is the outcome of previous thoughts, emotions and actions. Karma is the present and only we can create our karma. I don't see karma as a punishment, but as the result of my will and intent. I am its creator, therefore only I am responsible for it. I am not punished or rewarded, I receive exactly what I create. The likes of LM or any other for that matter have no say over my karma unless I allow it. They can do their worst but I claim as my own the outcome of my actions.

Interesting that LM integrity won't allow him to teach you how to protect yourself and yet he is quite willing for you to sully  yours by spying and stealing for him. Of course if he did teach you then you would be able to prevent your energy been pilfered by his double.

I have heard from a few people that he uses them for gathering intel, depending on their energy and skills. Just beware that he is watched by the CIA, that he claims to be Quetzalcoatl (the Aryan Christ) reincarnated. I am sure that you have a very good idea with your experiences just what type of person you are dealing with. I have met him a few times and seen him in a dream, once in human form and another as a old jaguar. As a jaguar he tried to kill me because I refused to be locked up under his 'protection', but a part of me put an end to him, meaning that he would have had to recover the energy he lost in the encounter.

I agree that his techniques are very effective and his books, especially his first are embedded with his intent. To me that means that when I read it I inadvertently connected to him and became a possible resource to him.

If you were able to 'steal' power from other sorcerers then you should be able to take back your power from him and his double.

Interesting that LM integrity won't allow him to teach you how to protect yourself and yet he is quite willing for you to sully  yours by spying and stealing for him. Of course if he did teach you then you would be able to prevent your energy been pilfered by his double.

Yes but he has no integrity, he'll take down whatever I set up to protect my energy just as he takes down my defenses to protect myself from his manipulations. He even coerces me to put my defenses up again, as if mocking or he will continue to manipulate me. And I do.

I have heard from a few people that he uses them for gathering intel, depending on their energy and skills. Just beware that he is watched by the CIA, that he claims to be Quetzalcoatl (the Aryan Christ) reincarnated.

With me, he showed me that his energy is that of many people. People will see in him "The Messiah", "The official prophet", "The egyptian prophet" or "The death defier" depending on who the person seeing him is. Each person will see him as someone significant depending on their beliefs. It's pretty interesting working with all these models and playing all these roles, You feel different...special...

I tried it on myself a few times and even had the Death Defiers turn me into one of them. I became "The Death Defier" and felt, looked, acted differently. I looked more attractive too. I felt special, like I was something or someone. But that all ended when they were trying to teach me that everything has an energy or pull to it and that sometimes you have to kill people for no reason. Just because of a balance that has to be made or something. They even apparently tried to kill me and sent me a vision/voice message that said "We're going to kill you"...at that moment, I used a "gift of power" to hurt them. They should of felt pain but probably didn't because they probably use protection techniques. But after that point, the energy I got from them immediately was one of respect. They honored me for protecting myself and made me one of them. 

I have met him a few times and seen him in a dream, once in human form and another as a old jaguar. As a jaguar he tried to kill me because I refused to be locked up under his 'protection', but a part of me put an end to him, meaning that he would have had to recover the energy he lost in the encounter.

I've been in the same position. If I said I didn't want to join his posse, I was attacked. He told me that he had protected my life on several incidents to lure me into his friendship yet would manipulate me daily, hurt me, cause me to hurt others. Giving me reasons to my suffering being "meeting my own reflection", "karma", "to teach me a lesson" ("everything has a lesson in it"), etc.

I'm glad to hear you survived his attack. It can be scary coming in contact with a shaman with many years of knowledge come for you in your dreams. He picks on people smaller than him (ie. people with less knowledge). I wonder if he has genuinely killed people from time to time. And whether I'm just another person who ended up being lucky like yourself.

[NathansHere]

@Pixie Dust

Nathan: Why are you still bothering me? You've tried to kill me many times and have failed. Why do you keep trying? 

Lujan The Double: "Unbending.... Intent"

[NathansHere]

Pixie Dust wrote:
I wholeheartedly agree with Abs.  Nate ought to "believe" LM away.  Like, it worked for Tinkerbell in Peter Pan.  They clapped for her to live again.  Maybe clap to make the boogieman go away.  It's worth a shot.  

I've tried a few times. It works for a few seconds :/

[Pixie Dust]

What a tough lot in life for you Nate. Do you ever wonder if he's just screwing with you because he can? Lol. You gotta stop playing around with Gods. Look what it's doing to you... :/

[NathansHere]

Pixie Dust wrote:
What a tough lot in life for you Nate.  Do you ever wonder if he's just screwing with you because he can?  Lol.  You gotta stop playing around with Gods.  Look what it's doing to you... :/

Yes, that's something I wanted to pinpoint...It was at the end of my tongue. Thank you. Because he can.

And now you can learn from my experience and have more gratitude for life.

Life can be amazing, just look at all the wonders. You only realize this once you take a loss or something tragic happens to you. That's what I've learnt anyway. Live your life! It's amazing! You only live once and there is so much to be grateful for.

[Pixie Dust]

Precisely. Turn those curses into blessings. Suffering into teachable moments. Water into wine.

Go get em Tiger! That's the spirit!

[NathansHere]

Thank you

Rawr!

[Pixie Dust]

Woot!

[Absyllyon]

The relevance of the CIA is that he claims it is they who are trying to neutralize/poison him. Which may be true if he has become a renegade. I believe it to be true that he has nearly died a few times and knew it within my heart at the time, only later was it verified.
I think that he is actually a child of a mind control program and a CIA asset gone renegade.
We should be able to question everything without been censured for unpopular ideas.

Hiding is not a solution and no where did I intimate that. Acknowledgement of ones position with the intent to bring in a new line of action indicate a willingness to stand in ones place and power. And consolidating ones energy and sealing it in may put a stop to been a beacon emanating energy to power hungry vampires - it is a tactical maneuver of a warrior. I wouldn't want to be hiding as it would mean that I am afraid.

[Pixie Dust]

Wut? Sounds like Lujan is just paranoid. He's not CIA. He's just an old man leading a cult. Poorly.

Btw I just mentioned fear in another thread.  Get outta my head lol.

[Absyllyon]

Hehe

[Silver Wind]

Pixie Dust wrote:
What a tough lot in life for you Nate.  Do you ever wonder if he's just screwing with you because he can?  Lol.  You gotta stop playing around with Gods.  Look what it's doing to you... :/

So, how do you get free of this, how do you get your power back? Asking for a friend.

[DoktorGreen]

There are 2 major anchors that need to be identified in a very specific way and then recapped. I mean the specific moment they were established in you. 1. Your belief that he has power over you. 2. Your fear of him. The usual methods of recapping work fine.

Note that HIS belief that he has power over you is nothing unless it has an opening that you are maintaining. Close the doors of belief and fear.
Dok

[Silver Wind]

Thanks for responding Dok. Well, ‘he’ in my case is an unidentified power/force pressing on me. I don’t know ‘who’ just what. Still, that being said I could still apply your recap methods of these anchors. But, wouldn’t you say that it’s also possible that an unbending powerful force exerting itself upon one is pretty much death itself, regardless of who the messenger is?

[Silver Wind]

Never mind my previous question (rough morning has my syntax all weird). I’ll apply ‘closing the doors of belief and fear’ and see what happens.

[Silver Wind]

And so it’s clear, I’m not referring to Lujan in my references. I’ve not encounter anything like this with Lujan double. In fact I’ve had positive experiences during my time with Lujan, and yes the memories are somewhat hazy, but for sure I didn’t feel such a thing as Nathan describes during my time with Lujan. No, I’m going through similar at this point in time and that would be more LW than Lujan as my encounter with his double is ongoing (though transformed into a different relationship than it started). But I don’t really know what (who) this force is. I don’t feel right assigning it to anyone, and what good would it do to do so? I could say it’s someones double and they could say no it’s not. So, it’s more something I personally have to address rather than externally identify by name, if that makes sense. I asked someone about it and they referenced it as linking to my own destructive intentions and how they’ve become aligned with internal/external experiences.

[Pixie Dust]

Dok has a good answer. Only issue is with #2 as it could be explained in more detail.

Just because you believe in something doesn't prevent something different from happening. Just because I don't believe in rain doesn't mean I don't get wet if I'm standing in the rain.

Belief is powerful when combined with intent. Manipulating belief can be helpful in that it can build boundaries. For example with rain.. if I'm not yet ready to believe that rain exists, I could believe it doesnt, assign the pitter patter noise to something else, close blinds and windows to avoid seeing it, use some type of air scent to avoid smelling it. Limiting the input from senses and then opening them up gradually helps prepare for addressing the concern/belief.

Dysfunction and fear are a result of being overwhelmed by energy. Manipulating belief helps to slow down the flow of energy. This helps put boundaries for what's trying to sit in your energy. Boundaries are great and allow you to experience what you want to experience, not what other people want you to experience.

As for your other concern, feeling a little unwell or jilted.. I would say to meet that energy with love. Negative emotions like hate, hurt, resentment (not that you're feeling those emotions, just that they're very powerful ones) heal from love. Not superficial love, but the unconditional type. The type that someone stabs you in the back 50 fifty times, twists the knife, throws you off a bridge, curses the sht out of you, and after somehow surviving you decide to love them. Not because they deserve it but because you deserve it. Loving dysfunctional people heals you, not them.

Loving people who have made you feel poorly is possible if you take the time to understand them. Each person has their own background that has made them into who they are. Each person often has things they haven't told you about, that have hurt them deeply. People are beautifully complex. When stressed in just the right ways anyone can become the devil. People are far from perfect and many like to pretend they're a version of perfect. Well. Most people aren't ok lol. So knowing that everyone is dealing with being human too helps develop compassion for @ssholes.

I think it's ok to love people on a basic human level (unconditionally) even when they're not capable of loving us back. When we give love to others, we're also giving love to ourselves because other people are connected to us.

Also, the body stores the emotions we experience. It might be helpful to do some bodywork to help release the accumulation of emotions over the years. Massage is my preferred method, but I'm sure there are many ways to help the body flow better.

The overall idea is to focus on you. When you love people it allows you to "reclaim" your energetic investment in them. Then you reinvest in yourself... and you find ways to love and celebrate who you are. Each of us deserves to be loved in a healthy way. In a way that makes us grow and helps us discover ourselves.

[Silver Wind]

Love IS important. And I have loved and cared for many on my path. In the sweetest of ways. That is my boundary. From fear, from evil. And I’m not talking about the corny Beatles love, cause we know that’s NOT love they be singing about. I’m talking about the living experiences of love and that is who I am, that keeps me in a state of pleasure forever, knowing this.

[Pixie Dust]

You are very skilled at loving people. When we love people we take on their baggage to heal them. It's important for healers to not carry the baggage long term, but to find a means to transform it (to prevent it from becoming our baggage). I'm glad you see yourself, it's important to recognize our power.

[Absyllyon]

1. Seal and consolidate oneself
2. Recap initiating impulse of event
3. Develop ones Will
4. Awaken the emotional center.
 
Perhaps these quotes I have found in various places may be of help.

Hamr(energetic shield of the physical body) – shield of defence
 
“We have considered the modus operandi of telepathic suggestion in detail because it forms the real basis of every kind of occult attack. Whether it be a discarnate entity, a being of another order of evolution, a demon from the Pit, or merely the panic-stricken soul of a selfish friend, clinging to the life of form regardless of consequences, in all cases the opening gambit is the same.
Until the aura is pierced, there can be no entrance to the soul, and the aura is always pierced from within by the response of fear or desire going out towards the attacking entity. If we can inhibit that instinctive emotional reaction [zero-point non-reactive consciousness, grounded in the body – embodiment/soul anchoring], the edge of the aura will remain impenetrable, and will be as sure a defense against psychic invasion as the healthy and unbroken skin is a defense against bacterial infection.”
– Dion Fortune, “Psychic Self-Defense -The Classical Instruction Manual for Protecting Yourself Against Paranormal Attack”

From A Separate Reality:
You must act like a warrior. One learns to act like a warrior by acting, not by talking. A warrior has only his will and his patience and with them he builds anything he wants. You have no more time for retreats or for regrets. You only have time to live like a warrior and work for patience and will . Will is something very special. It happens mysteriously. There is no real way of telling how one uses it, except that the results of using the will are astounding. Perhaps the first thing that one should do is to know that one can develop the will. A warrior knows that and proceeds to wait for it. A warrior knows that he is waiting and knows what he is waiting for. It is very difficult, if not impossible, for the average man to know what he is waiting for. A warrior, however, has no problems; he knows that he is waiting for his will. Will is something very clear and powerful which can direct our acts. Will is something a man uses, for instance, to win a battle which he, by all calculations, should lose. It is not what we call courage. Courage is something else. Men of courage are dependable men, noble men perennially surrounded by people who flock around them and admire them; yet very few men of courage have will . Usually they are fearless men who are given to performing daring common-sense acts; most of the time a courageous man is also fearsome and feared. Will , on the other hand, has to do with astonishing feats that defy our common sense. You may say that it is a kind of control. Will is not what one calls “will power.” Denying oneself certain things with “will power,” is an indulgence and I don’t recommend anything of the kind. The indulgence of denying is by far the worst; it forces us to believe we are doing great things, when in effect we are only fixed within ourselves. Will is a power. And since it is a power it has to be controlled and tuned and that takes time. When I was your age I was as impulsive as you. Yet I have changed. Our will operates in spite of our indulgence. For example your will is already opening your gap, little by little. There is a gap in us; like the soft spot on the head of a child which closes with age, this gap opens as one develops one’s will . It’s an opening. It allows a space for the will to shoot out, like an arrow. What a sorcerer calls will is a power within ourselves. It is not a thought, or an object, or a wish. An act of “will power” is not will because such an act needs thinking and wishing. Will is what can make you succeed when your thoughts tell you that you’re defeated. Will is a force which is the true link between men and the world. The world is whatever we perceive, in any manner we may choose to perceive. Perceiving the world entails a process of apprehending whatever presents itself to us. This particular perceiving is done with our senses and with our will . Will is a relation between ourselves and the perceived world. What the average man calls will is character and strong disposition. What a sorcerer calls will is a force that comes from within and attaches itself to the world out there. One can perceive the world with the senses as well as with the will. An average man can “grab” the things of the world only with his hands, or his senses, but a sorcerer can grab them also with his will . I cannot really describe how it is done, but you yourself, for instance, cannot describe to me how you hear. It happens that I am also capable of hearing, so we can talk about what we hear, but not about how we hear. A sorcerer uses his will to perceive the world. That perceiving, however, is not like hearing. When we look at the world or when we hear it, we have the impression that it is out there and that it is real. When we perceive the world with our will we know that the world is not as “out there” or as “real” as we think. Will is a force, a power. Seeing is not a force, but rather a way of getting through things. A sorcerer may have a very strong will and yet he may not see ; which means that only a man of knowledge perceives the world with his senses and with his will and also with his seeing. Now you know you are waiting for your will . You still don’t know what it is, or how it could happen to you. So watch carefully everything you do. The very thing that could help you develop your will is amidst all the little things you do.

When a man behaves in such a manner one may rightfully say that he is a warrior and has acquired patience. When a warrior has acquired patience he is on his way to will . He knows how to wait. His death sits with him on his mat, they are friends. His death advises him, in mysterious ways, how to choose, how to live strategically. And the warrior waits! I would say that the warrior learns without any hurry because he knows he is waiting for his will ; and one day he succeeds in performing something ordinarily quite impossible to accomplish. He may not even notice his extraordinary deed. But as he keeps on performing impossible acts, or as impossible things keep on happening to him, he becomes aware that a sort of power is emerging. A power that comes out of his body as he progresses on the path of knowledge. He notices that he can actually touch anything he wants with a feeling that comes out of his body from a spot right below or right above his navel. That feeling is the will , and when he is capable of grabbing with it, one can rightfully say that the warrior is a sorcerer, and that he has acquired will .

From Tales of Power:
Storing sufficient personal power will enable you to turn your will into a functioning unit. As I’ve said, will is a force that emanates from the umbilical region through an unseen opening below the navel, an opening called the gap . Will is cultivated only by sorcerers and gives them the capacity to perform extraordinary acts. The will develops in a warrior in spite of every opposition of the reason. You are the one who’s learning, therefore you yourself must claim knowledge as power. You must find out whether or not your will works. You must prove to yourself that you are in the position to claim knowledge as power. In other words, you yourself have to be convinced that you can exercise your will. The body must be perfection before the will is a functioning unit.

The secret of the luminous beings is that they have another ring of power which is never used, the will . The trick of the sorcerer is the same trick of the average man. Both have a description; one, the average man, upholds it with his reason ; the other, the sorcerer, upholds it with his will . Both descriptions have their rules and the rules are perceivable, but the advantage of the sorcerer is that will is more engulfing than reason . You must learn to let yourself perceive whether the description is upheld by your reason or by your will. That is the only way for you to use your daily world as a challenge and a vehicle to accumulate enough personal power in order to get to the totality of yourself.

Let’s say that the warrior learns to tune his will , to direct it to a pinpoint, to focus it wherever he wants. It is as if his will , which comes from the midsection of his body, is one single luminous fiber, a fiber that he can direct at any conceivable place. That fiber is the road to the nagual . Or I could also say that the warrior sinks into the nagual through that single fiber. Once he has sunk, the expression of the nagual is a matter of his personal temperament.

You are a nameless cluster of feelings. There is another center of assemblage, the will , through which it is possible to judge or assess and use the extraordinary effects of the nagual. One can reflect the nagual through the will, although one can never explain it.

From The Second Ring of Power:
Anything is possible if one wants it with unbending intent and you don’t let your thoughts interfere.
The problem for you as a challenge is whether or not you will be capable of developing your will , or the power of your second attention to focus indefinitely on anything you want.
From The Eagle’s Gift:
To elucidate the control of the second attention, I’ve presented the idea of will . Will can be described as the maximum control of the luminosity of the body as a field of energy; or it can be described as a level of proficiency, as a state of being that comes abruptly into the daily life of a warrior at any given time. It is experienced as a force that radiates out of the middle part of the body following a moment of the most absolute silence, or a moment of sheer terror, or profound sadness. Those things afford the warrior the concentration needed to use the luminosity of the body and turn it into silence. For a human being sadness is as powerful as terror. Both can bring the moment of silence. Or the silence comes of itself, because the warrior tries for it throughout his life. It is a moment of blackness, a moment still more silent than the moment of shutting off the internal dialogue. That blackness, that silence, gives rise to the intent to direct the second attention, to command it, to make it do things. This is why it’s called will . The intent and the effect are will ; they are tied together. We don’t feel our will because we think that it should be something we know for sure that we are doing or feeling, like getting angry, for instance. Will is very quiet, unnoticeable. Will belongs to the other self. We are in our other selves when we do dreaming. Will is such a complete control of the second attention that it is called the other self.

From The Power of Silence:
The universe is made up of energy fields which defy description or scrutiny. They resemble filaments of ordinary light, except that light is lifeless compared to the Indescribable Force ‘s emanations, which exude awareness. Normal perception occurs when intent , which is pure energy, lights up a portion of the luminous filaments inside our cocoon, and at the same time brightens a long extension of the same luminous filaments extending into infinity outside our cocoon. Extraordinary perception, seeing , occurs when by the force of intent , a different cluster of energy fields energizes and lights up. When a crucial number of energy fields are lit up inside the luminous cocoon, a sorcerer is able to see the energy fields themselves. Awareness takes place when the energy fields inside our luminous cocoon are aligned with the same energy fields outside. Only a very small portion of the total number of luminous filaments inside the cocoon are energized while the rest remain unaltered. The filaments do not need to be aligned to be lit up, because the ones inside our cocoon are the same as those outside. Whatever energizes them is definitely an independent force. We can’t call it awareness because awareness is the glow of the energy fields being lit up. The force that lites up the fields is named will. Will is the force that keeps the Indescribable Force’s emanations separated and is not only responsible for our awareness, but also for everything in the universe. This force has total consciousness and it springs from the very fields of energy that make the universe. Intent is a more appropriate name for it than will . In the long run, however, the name proves disadvantageous, because it does not describe its overwhelming importance nor the living connection it has with everything in the universe. Our great collective flaw is that we live our lives completely disregarding that connection. The busyness of our lives, our relentless interests, concerns, hopes, frustrations, and fears take precedence, and on a day-to-day basis we are unaware of being linked to everything else.
Being cast out from the Garden of Eden sounds like an allegory for losing our silent knowledge, our knowledge of intent . sorcery, then, is a going back to the beginning, a return to paradise. The spirit is the force that sustains the universe. Intent is not something one might use or command or move in any way–nevertheless, one could use it, command it, or move it as one desires. This contradiction is the essence of sorcery. To fail to understand it has brought generations of sorcerers unimaginable pain and sorrow. Modern-day naguals, in an effort to avoid paying this exorbitant price in pain, have developed a code of behavior called the warrior’s way, or the impeccable action, which prepares sorcerers by enhancing their sobriety and thoughtfulness.
sorcerers concern themselves exclusively with the capacity that their individual connecting link with intent has to set them free to light the fire from within. All modern-day sorcerers have to struggle fiercely to gain soundness of mind. Sorcery is an attempt to reestablish our knowledge of intent and regain use of it without succumbing to it. The abstract cores of the sorcerer stories are shades of realization, degrees of our being aware of intent.
From The Fire From Within:
This is one of the most extraordinary things that the new seers found out: that our command can become the Indescribable Force ‘s command. The internal dialogue stops in the same way it begins: by an act of will . After all, we are forced to start talking to ourselves by those who teach us. As they teach us, they engage their will and we engage ours, both without knowing it. As we learn to talk to ourselves, we learn to handle will . We will ourselves to talk to ourselves. The way to stop talking to ourselves is to use exactly the same method: we must will it, we must intend it.
They began by seeing how the glow of awareness increases in size and intensity as the emanations inside the cocoon are aligned with the emanations at large. They used that observation as a springboard, just as they had done with stalking , and went on to develop a complex series of techniques to handle that alignment of emanations. At first they referred to those techniques as the mastery of alignment. Then they realized that what is involved is much more than alignment; what is involved is the energy that comes out of the alignment of emanations. They called that energy will. Will became the second basis. The new seers understood it as a blind, impersonal, ceaseless burst of energy that makes us behave in the ways we do. Will accounts for our perception of the world of ordinary affairs, and indirectly, through the force of that perception, it accounts for the placement of the assemblage point in its customary position. The new seers examined how the perception of the world of everyday life takes place and saw the effects of will. They saw that alignment is ceaselessly renewed in order to imbue perception with continuity. To renew alignment every time with the freshness that it needs to make up a living world, the burst of energy that comes out of those very alignments is automatically rerouted to reinforce some choice alignments. This new observation served the new seers as another springboard that helped them reach the third basis of the set. They called it intent , and they described it as the purposeful guiding of will, the energy of alignment.
To see the Indescribable Force ‘s emanations you must first move your assemblage point until you see the cocoon of man.
Alignment is a unique force because it either helps the assemblage point shift, or it keeps it glued to its customary position. The aspect of alignment that keeps the point stationary is will ; and the aspect that makes it shift is intent . One of the most haunting mysteries is how will , the impersonal force of alignment, changes into intent , the personalized force, which is at the service of each individual. The strangest part of this mystery is that the change is so easy to accomplish. But what is not so easy is to convince ourselves that it is possible. There, right there, is our safety catch. We have to be convinced. And none of us wants to be.

Excerpt from Gnosis book-two, by Boris Mouravieff

          Emotional Center
Due to education and training our civilization towards the intensive training of the negative part of the motor center and towards an intellectual culture, cause of the obviously unbalanced development of the human Personality: highly intelligent, and skillful yet reveals weakness and striking passivity on the emotional plane.

Moments of Relaxation conceived, lead to creative inspiration, which is analogous on the plane of the psyche to conception on the physical plane.
All the opportunities for man's esoteric evolution while working in the world lie in this.
How can we awaken the emotional center and then develop it? The answer is, by mastering negative emotions and transmuting them into positive emotions.

The magnetic center is formed starting from the lower emotional center, which it progressively absorbs before it is finally integrated into the higher emotions center, the door way to Light and real Life.

It may be surprise that when treated according to precise rules founded on a strenuous psychics discipline, these very same emotions, though harmful, can become an abundant source of the fine active energies whose presence is necessary for the development of the Personality. (re Volitive ‘I’ – John Baines)

A diametrically effect is produced at the moment when negative emotions arise in person. The subject need to remain calm and does not mechanically fall into a state of confluence.

The negative emotions can only be formed and begin to act in the inner darkness which characterize the state of confluence, but introspective observation brightens our inner being just like a streetlamp.
The light projected by constatation within the limits of the Present disassociates the negative emotions, and the passions which gave rise to them then fall back into a latent state.

But constatation has yet another effect that is of primary importance: the immediate disassociation of the component which constitute the negative emotion liberates the energy SI-12, which the passion had drawn into the motor center.
A victory over negative emotion brings an inflow of joy into the lower emotional center.
This joy is an expression of the abundance of the energy SI-12 released by constatation, this makes the lower emotional center vibrate at the rapid rhythm that instaneous contact with the higher emotional center and triggers the release of a current of energy SOL-12.

Each victory over a negative emotion accelerates the formation of this center. It is this energy which allows the establishment of a contact with the higher emotional center and accelerates the growth and the development of the magnetic center.

However, when we cultivate inner peace, our opportunities for profitably exploiting the negative emotions and to obtain fine energies become very scarce.
Then there remains only one other source, that of negative emotions aroused by shocks from outside us. This kind of shock will never be lacking for those who work in the world.
But whoever commits himself on this field of battle will find help from the depths of his being.

In the individual case, the positive effects of negative emotions lies in the fact that they serve as Awakening alarms.
The process which leads to fusion must be attentively observed during its development and subjected at every moment to the practice of lucid Presence in Oneself.
 
the heart experiences an
ineffable transport of joy,
 
From Gurdjieff - the 4th way
 
The Sly Man strives to raise himself up, to spiritualize himself, to flog himself into enduring wakefulness and Will, to transmute the dross of Personality into the Gold of Individuality. In this struggle, he must incorporate the disciplines of the Fakir, the Monk, and the Yogi, bringing his wayward physical, emotional and mental selves into obedience. And he must perform this immense threefold task not in a retreat, a monastery or an ashram, but while pursuing the daily business of life--keeping his inner agenda and objectives primary over the great clamoring world. And--a fourth task!--he must not forget to remember himself!
It is, alas, the unending task of Sisyphus that the Sly Man has undertaken, pushing the great rock of Personality slowly upward after each inevitable rollback.

[Silver Wind]

When you know in your gut something wrong, you have to follow that. Whatever  you all do here is wrong to me. I don’t respect a path that belittles, tricks, fools, and lies, to get personal gain. That is beneath me and what I follow. I am honest, at least in the essential way, doesn’t mean everything out of my mouth is the truth, but I support truthfulness, and speaking about things that help everyone, not just a few (secret groups). I didn’t come here for that. That’s not what I signed up for. I remove myself from everyone here, and anything to do with any of you. You lied and betrayed me, in so many ways. I do not accept the outcome you had planned for me. If you really, sincerely wanted me to benefit, you would have DIRECTLY shown me the keys to follow to get to a place of power. Instead you tried to trick me into something that is unwholesome. This is why I’m removing my energy and links from all of you this applies to. 

And if you were decent people, you would not hold this post against me and blame me. Because I’m obviously speaking from the place of someone who’s just figured out they’ve been tricked, and what I thus need to now do. I’m leaving your influences, I do not choose to be used. I never agreed to being used, by ANYONE here. No one would ever chose such a thing, and no one should ever have to. It goes against the laws of nature, creation for all, and is evil. You say integrate the evil side. Yeah you say, you say...all of it lies.