rosy wrote:my unbending intent is such that "lateral" communication i.e. between me and another cannot convey my intent.
to me that seems like an unwise thing to intend
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rosy wrote:Some belief systems call it the teacher saviourship model..
a basic problem that exists when a student loses the power of knowing as they project it onto a teacher
who thinks they know it all.
yes this can happen. But a good teacher knows how to not get caught in this. It is a burden. Only **** teachers like this burden and think it is actual Power.
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rosy wrote:I would love to explain my pictures more eloquently.
I think you are getting better at it
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rosy wrote:once i read a passage by Theun Mares who said the TOnal is a bit like a log of wood that will oneday become a chair.
and that in order to make it we must whittle away the un necissary.
very nice and functional imagery. Theun Mares has some good things to say
. I especially liked his explanation of how power plants erode our energy body.
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Rosy wrote:In my youth i made some very brave decisions of intent in order to shift the habitual as it is my unbending intent
and i LOST a whole bunch of skills when i started carving.
its not that i dont have acess to them
its just i do not have the intent to use them.
equality is a see saw in a strobe light.
Yes, very true, this is how it works for me too. And I dare say for most people who are learning. The thing is that after some time has passed one sees better the position that one had moved to and can adjust. Sometimes it is a long and arduous process. Indeed a seesaw. You can find some of those skills you lost again while keeping in sync with most of the stuff that you found important when you made the decision to shift the habitual. You can also learn to shift faster. If you want to be eloquent at connecting with others and explaining - shift. Then shift back. I do this sometimes with my own seesaw version (that is not about explaining things). I have some resistance everytime I swing it
. it is not something I enjoy, but it is important. Certain skills are needed in certain situations... It is our luck that we have access to different ways of being.
When one's chosen position becomes so rigid that one cannot move to a position that is functional n a needed moment then I would say that we aree starting to lock ourselves. Fluidity is important. Functionality is important. etc.
I have my own challenges and I understand the way this stuff works, so I get it. But you surely should not give up. I also gave up certain intents. I felt they were not relevant for my overall goals. But at some point I noticed that doing that unabalnced me in a certain way and actually crippled me in an aspect of my normal life. So, after some years, I picked up one or two of these intents and put them back on. This is what controlled folly is... in the sense that... you wear certain clothes and semblances because otherwise you'd be nacked in a world full of clothes and you'd not only not fit in and might not be functional in that world, but you'd also stick out like a sore thumb. Which might be quite a bad idea.
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rosy wrote:here seems to be an awful lot of using the power of the nagual, very little of using it in conjunction with own corporeal.
I am very much of the school “ healer heal thyself” and don’t understand the absence of stories of ruthlessness with the self via application of nagual to that self.
When all is said and done the nagual alone is not a stream to infinity, it requires the corporeal in order to evolve awareness and if you only cultivate the nagual portion you risk in the final moments becoming bound to an unresolved corporeal previously ignored.
Howgh!
